Forever They Will Be Secrets To Me

Jealousy leads to worry, which leads to stress and frustration. I'm only on level 1: jealousy. I've never been jealous of a matchmaking or relationship. Never. So why now, with you? When a friend of mine laughs about the names she mixes together who would form a cute couple, why is your name with that other girl? I know you liked her--maybe you still do--but why does it affect me now? I didn't care back then, and I agreed you would be cute with her. Is it because that was before I knew about your confession? Maybe you're bluffing about me, maybe you're mistaken. I want to believe that you're bluffing, I will force myself to believe.
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There, I don't believe you like me. Now get out of my head so I can think straight.
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Why can't you leave me alone and go with her already??