Forever They Will Be Secrets To Me

I cried over you last night. I felt weak and helpless. I've done it so many times, but it was worse last night. It made me want to hate you so bad that I just kept crying until i couldn't anymore. It made me hate myself just a little more. I can't hate you. I have no reason to, and to be completely honest I love you and miss you so much that I asked for you today. You made it better and I'm happy now. I feel embarrassed about last night now, actually. I wanted to tell you about it... about realizations I had and more, but I guess if you see this, this is my way of telling you. I'm happy we decided to try again. I want to make it work this time. Most of all, I want you to know that I think it will.