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Forever They Will Be Secrets To Me
Secret #52
I hate the fact that it seems my fear of people ruins the plans of the people whom of which I do not fear. They want to go somewhere, my paranoia and schizophrenia will not let me stop clinging to the comforts of my home. Do they think its as easy for me as it is for them?
I cannot simply get up and decide when to go out or when to do things spur of the moment. For myself to get up for school in the morning is a hard thing in and of itself. I fear the rejection, the pain and ultimately the stares.
Will the bruises show through my clothes? Can I hide them from my friends? Will I ever be a normal person again? DO any of them see the pain in my face when I walk in after a night of constant screams and violent beatings? I hope not. I conceal my scars well, yet I am not superwomen. I still have the fear that they will find out.
Maybe they already have, and they just don't say anything. Well, this is to all of you who know. Tell me if you think you've figured out my secret. I'm afraid to do this alone.
I cannot simply get up and decide when to go out or when to do things spur of the moment. For myself to get up for school in the morning is a hard thing in and of itself. I fear the rejection, the pain and ultimately the stares.
Will the bruises show through my clothes? Can I hide them from my friends? Will I ever be a normal person again? DO any of them see the pain in my face when I walk in after a night of constant screams and violent beatings? I hope not. I conceal my scars well, yet I am not superwomen. I still have the fear that they will find out.
Maybe they already have, and they just don't say anything. Well, this is to all of you who know. Tell me if you think you've figured out my secret. I'm afraid to do this alone.