Forever They Will Be Secrets To Me

I want so badly for you to be happy, but not with someone else. I want to be the one to make you smile, to make you laugh, and feel good about yourself. I also want to have the ability to crush you, make you cry over me, and hurt just as much as I have over you. Its nice to imagine, but I could never cause you pain, even if I were given the chance. I just love you more than I should. Who honestly still loves someone who keeps hurting them?