I'm Still Breathing

Life has gone on since I found out that I'm pregnant. I'm now 3 and a half months in. my friends keep telling that you can see a small bump on my stomach, but I don't believe them. It's still hard for me to believe that I'm carrying the love of my life's kid inside of me. But I have to look at the facts and see it's the truth. I miss Alex a lot, I wish he didn't got angry at me and left the way he left, but life has to go on. I'm back on track in school getting ready for the finals.

Me and my friends are sitting in English doing homework. Our teacher has gone out again 'Coz the principal wanted to talk to her. I'm seriously going to die if an other bands come visit us. No more band visit! I sigh trying to figure out how to translate a piece, when our teacher come back in looking at us.

“good news kids. In about a half month we'll be going to England to visit Elliot Minor. It's as a thanks from them for letting them be here. You can already start packing your bags.” she tells us. Everyone is happy, everyone is talking about how it's going to be. But not me. I'm scared to death, going to visit Elliot Minor means that I have to stand face to face with Alex and tell him the truth that I'm pregnant and I don't think I can do that. My friends looks worried at me and Anne takes my hand rubbing it.

“it'll be okay kiddo, just wait and see” she smiles, I smile back and nods hoping she's right.