Goodbye

I sighed as I pushed my bed sheets off of my body before I retreated over to my dresser. I couldn’t help but stare at the picture that stood there in a really nice frame; Nick and I a few years back, three I think, when we were happy and in love.

I smiled slightly and continued to go through my dresser to find what I was looking for. I couldn’t help but think back to how happy we were and in love; this wasn’t me how I was always moping around now that he’s gone and not in my life anymore.

I felt the tears I’ve been crying for over a month and a half well up in my eyes as I walked in to the bathroom, the clothes I picked out for the day in hand. After a few minutes, waiting for the water to heat up, I got in the shower.

The steaming hot water felt so good as it made contact with my skin. After a few minutes of letting it soak in, I started washing my body. About fifteen minutes later, I finished up in the shower. That felt so good; I felt refreshed.

After I got out of the shower, I wrapped a towel around my body before making my way back in to my room, letting all of the hot steam out of the bathroom in the process. After pulling my bra and underwear out of my dresser drawer, I slip them on before going and changing in to my outfit. I put on my outfit for work; I worked at the nearest Sonic drive-in as a bus girl, taking food out to everyone in their cars and some who sit outside and eat.

After I finished getting ready for the day, I grabbed my iPhone before heading down the stairs. I couldn’t help but tear up a bit as I saw what was on the TV screen; Nick and his brothers were talking about their new 2010 World Tour they were headlining.

“Hey, Rach, would you mind turning that off, for me please?” I asked my 20 year old sister who sat on the couch, remote in hand.

“Sure,” she said, switching it to something else as I took a seat beside her on the couch.

“You okay? How are you doing with the whole, you know, break up and everything?” I sighed before I started talking.

“Y-yeah, I-I’m fine,” I said, staring down at the ground.

“I’m okay, I guess. I think I’m gonna go for a drive…I need to think for a while,” I said before getting up and grabbing my keys off the counter and heading toward the garage door.

After getting into my car, I pull it out of the garage before closing it shut as I started driving. As soon as I turned on the radio, I heard none other than the voice of Nicholas Jonas.

“And that was Nick Jonas and the Administration with Who I Am,” the radio DJ said right as the song ended. I cut the radio off there, I didn’t want to hear it right now; it already hurt badly enough and I really didn’t want it becoming worse than it already was.

I pulled my car over to the side of the road. Looking up with tears in my eyes which started blurring my vision slightly I noticed I was right next to the park that Nick and I used to go to all the time. By the time I looked in the rear view mirror again, I had tears falling down my cheeks, which was totally ruining my makeup, but what did I care. I really didn’t care about anything at this moment; all I knew was that I needed him.

I moved and rested my forehead on the window pane as slowly but surely the tears started to fall down my already pale cheeks. I couldn’t do this; I needed him. I began to think back to all of the times Nick and I used to spend down here at the park; I remember this was the place where he asked me to be his girlfriend.

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I couldn’t help but smile to myself as I made my way down to the park. Nick was meeting me here, because he had something to tell me. I went and took a seat down on the nearest bench.

While I waited for him to get there, I just messed around on my iPhone. A few minutes later, I look up to see him standing there; a huge grin on his face, probably because he saw me. I couldn’t help but smile back over at him; he was adorable and I was in love with him and that cute, cheesy smile of his.

“H-hey,” he stuttered, smiling over at me. I smiled back and looked down at the ground; I wasn’t going to lie, I was a bit nervous as to what he was going to tell me.

“H-hi,” I smile back and look back up at him.

“So, uh, what was it you were going to tell me?” I asked, smiling as I looked over at him.

“I-I love you, Brooke Elizabeth Meyers, will you be my girlfriend?” he asked, pulling out a necklace with a silver chain and nice heart pendant.

“Y-yes I’d love to be your girlfriend, and I-I love you too!” I smiled over at him as he pulled me closer before spinning me around and telling me to lift all my hair up so he could clasp the necklace in to place. Once he clasped the necklace in to place, he slowly let my hair down before turning me around in his arms so I was facing him.

He smiled before slowly leaning in and attaching his lips on mine. I smile in to the kiss before I start to slowly kiss him back and pulling him closer. After slowly pulling away from the kiss, he pulls me in to a loving hug; I knew he never wanted to let me go. I knew now since he broke my heart, it wasn’t true anymore that he never wanted to let me go. He was probably happy he let me go and let me live like this.

I know for sure I wasn’t happy; I just sighed before I drove off heading toward the place where I worked. I worked at the nearest Sonic drive-in. It was a pretty good paying job; about $3.50 an hour. I mean, I don’t like it job-wise but at least I’m getting paid out of it.

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After changing out of my slip-on Vans, I slid on my skates before I had to take an order outside to someone’s car. About ten minutes later, I was back inside. I went and checked my phone; there was a new voicemail and two new text messages.

They were all from him. What did he want? I guess since I’m working, I’ll have to check them later. I decided to open one of the messages since I already had my phone out. It read: Hey Brookie, it’s me…how are you? I really need to talk to you. Just listen to the voicemail I left, I explained everything pretty clearly. Well, I guess I’ll talk to you later. – Nick. I felt the tears build up in my eyes as I stared down at the screen on my iPhone.

I just sighed and locked my phone before shoving it back in to my pocket. I shut my eyes for a few minutes so I could try and get rid of the tears. I opened my eyes a few minutes later and sniffled softly before a few more tears slid down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them away before anyone saw. Soon, my manager, Ashley looked over at me.

“Hey Brooke, you okay?” she questioned, a concerned look on her face.

I just shook my head and continued to stare down at the ground.

“Well, if you need to, you can head home early, I’ll call someone to come and cover the rest of your shift for you,” she smiled, light-heartedly over at me. I just smiled lightly and thanked her before I went and gathered all of my things and headed out to my car.

After pulling out my phone, I decided to listen to the voicemail Nick left. Once I dialed it up, I waited for it to go through. It started playing right away.

“Hey, Brookie, it’s me. I r-really need to talk to you. There’s something I really need to tell you. I-I’m r-really sorry for everything I put you through when I broke up with you. I know I am just now realizing this, but I really miss you. I need you back in my life and I still love you as much as I did back then. We’re back in town now; do you think we could meet somewhere so we can talk about all this? Well, I guess I’ll talk to you later…bye.” I leaned over so I was now resting my elbow on the side ledge of the window and continued to stare out the window.

That’s what did it right there; tears were now flowing down my cheeks as I continued to stare out the window. I was not going to lie; I missed him and needed him, like really bad. I reached over and grabbed my iPhone from where it sat on the middle console. I started to scroll through my contacts. Soon enough, I came across his name; I decided to call Nick because I really wanted to talk to him and I was really missing him pretty bad.

About right as soon as I was about to tap the button that said ‘call’, he was already calling me. I felt soft tears build up in my eyes as I tapped the ‘call’ button to answer it.

“H-hello?” I questioned, as I began to stare out the window, tears forming in my eyes.

“Brookie?” I heard Nick on the other line; he was the only one who ever called me that. I really missed that!

“H-hey,” I stuttered, looking down.

“D-did you g-get that voice-mail I left?” he questioned.

“Y-yeah, I did,” I stuttered, as I continued to look down.

“D-do you think we could meet somewhere and talk about all this? Because I was totally wrong about everything and I really need you to know that.” I heard him on the other line. Right then, tears were already slipping down my cheeks.

I sniffled before replying a soft “sure,”.

“So, I guess I’ll see you in a few? Down at the park where we got together?” he asked.

I replied a quick “yeah, sure,” before we hung up.

I couldn’t believe in just a few short minutes I would be with him. I started up the car and started heading over there. After I parked my car, I got out, grabbed my phone and started walking over to a bench so I could wait for him. A few minutes later, I look up to see him walking toward me.

As soon as he got over to me, he took a seat beside me before looking up at me as he started to speak. I could tell he was upset by the look in his eyes; there were soft tears in his eyes.

“Brooke, listen…” he trailed off and took a small breath before continuing.

I just nodded slightly as I felt him take my hand in his. I knew my head was already going crazy. I felt those same butterflies I had the first time we got together a while back; they never left.

“I miss you. I-I really do. I remember everything, d-do you? I still remember the way you used to kiss me; I need you back in my life. Those past few months were horrible without you in my life. I was always moping around everywhere and it wasn’t too pretty at all. I still love you just as much as I did,” he said.

Now I knew, tears were slipping down my already pale cheeks as I stared over at him.

“I-I miss you too. I remember everything too! I’ve never forgotten, it’s been total hell without you by my side and I wasn’t myself.” I said as he reached over and took my hand in his, softly moving his thumb over my fingers lightly. I smiled before I laced our fingers together while he pulled me closer in his arms.

“I just want to let you know…I love you with all my heart babe and I never want to lose you again like I already have once before. I promise you I will never let you go again, ever! You’re my everything Brooke, I love you!” he said, staring in to my eyes. I felt a few more tears well up in my eyes.

“Babe, baby, don’t! Please don’t cry, you know what that does to me whenever you do…I love you!” he stated, smiling slightly before leaning in and kissing me softly on the lips. I smiled before I started kissing him back. I knew I never wanted this to end.