My Desperate Endeavor To Find My Whoever.

Because it has to be so lonely,
To be the only one who's holy

Lisa's P.O.V.

I walked into the back lounge where I had seen Andrea walk to.

She was sitting on the couch, staring at the tv absentmindedly, not even noticing that I had walked into the room.

I made a small coughing noise, signaling to her that I was here. She looked up at me, and though she hid it well, playing it off as though nothing was wrong, I could see in her eyes that she had no idea what the fuck to do.

I almost felt sorry for her, Key word; almost.

Hey, I'm a bitch. What can I say, this type of thing is in my nature.

I kept a blank face as I walked over and sat next to her. She looked at me all together shocked.

A scowl fell upon my face as I began talking. "We need to discuss some things."

She just sat there listening.

"So I found this in the bathroom." I continued, holding up the box and all it's contents. "I know what you're hiding. I know that you're fucking pregnant with Alex's child." I spat at her.

Her eyes widened in pure horror. I'm sure this was the last thing she ever expected to happen. The person she hated most, finding out the very thing she never wanted to live up to.

Andrea's P.O.V.

Oh my fuck.

I dropped the box when we bumped into each other. She apparently picked it up, and now she knows. I was positively sure that she would rat me out to him, seeing as that was the last thing I wanted to happen. Yet, here she was, staring at me with a hint of something in her eyes, I had yet to find out about.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" I said, trying to play it cool.

"Don't play dumb with me." She said scowling. "You know as well as I do, that I'm speaking the truth."

I rubbed my forehead, shutting my eyes. ”How do you know? A simple test, doesn't mean anything. It doesn't mean that it's Alex's."

"He told me when I got here that two days ago, he got wasted and fucked some girl. He told me that he was honestly so drunk, he had no idea who it was. It's clear, with you taking a test, and the fact that you're here, and not selling merch, that you're clearly pregnant, and are the one whom Alex fucked while he was drunk."

I was shocked that she had been able to figure out that much. I must give her credit. For a little bitch she’s a conniving one at that.

"Wha...What's it gonna take to keep you quiet about this?" I asked her, worry clouding my brain.

I closed my eyes and pinched the bridge of my nose.

She set the box next to me, and looked at her professionally manicured pink nails as she spoke. "Nothing too much." We weren't bothering to whisper, as they were out playing a show, and I had asked them if I could stay here, as I wasn't 'feeling well'. Which wasn’t exactly a total lie.

I sighed. "Name your price."

She thought and looked me full on in the eyes. "Just…that once we're off warped, you can never talk to Alex again. Ever. You can do that can‘t you?" She said raising her eyebrows.

My heart nearly stopped beating. It was enough that he had her, and all we could ever be was friends, but having to never speak to him again? That just might be…unbearable.

Though, in thinking about this, I was sure that he wasn't ready to be a father. Let alone the father of his friend's child, whom he wasn't even with in such a way that suggested they were lovers.

I guess I had no other choice. I mean...really.

Also, she was probably going to find Alex before I, and having him hear it from her, not me, was sure, to be the death of our friendship.

I just nodded, and she grinned evilly. "I can do that."

Her grin widened. "I knew you would." She got up and was going to walk out the door, when she stopped to look at me. "Oh, and thank you so much for giving me the perfect idea." She looked at me funnily, before sauntering away.

I was so confused, with all the things going through my head, that I had no idea as to what was to come next.

***

We were sitting, scattered around the back area and such, like we always did, eating our so called 'dinner' consisting of takeout like it usually did.

I was sitting on the floor legs crossed, eating my food. I wasn't really paying attention to what they were saying. I was too busy worrying about what was gonna happen when I left here. I'd go back home and everything, but what would I tell my parents? My mother knew about the whole Alex ordeal, but my father...well I wouldn't put it past him to disown me, or go after Alex.

I was thinking when I heard Lisa speak, the last words I had ever expected to come out of her mouth.

"Everyone! We have to tell you guys something." She had everyone's full attention. "I'm pregnant!" She said giggling like no tomorrow.

I nearly choked on my drink, and noticed that Maddie wasn't buying any of this, though she was shocked none the less.

I looked at Alex as he hugged her close.

Then I looked to see Jack, looking at me with a regretful expression, as though to say he was sorry.

I didn't need sympathy, but I could also see that he wasn't too happy about this either.

It looked as though none of them were happy about this, but were buying it, and I suppose that‘s all that mattered to Lisa.

God dammit. Just when I thought my life couldn't get any worse.

My whole life was spiraling down into nothing, with that simple phrase.

I knew she wasn't pregnant, that's for sure, but Alex didn't. This was her plan, all along.

Alex’s P.O.V.

As I held Lisa close, I can’t help but think of earlier…

Everything just happened so…fast.

*Flashback*

Andrea had called me, right before our set, saying she had something very important to tell me.

I was somewhat anxious, I really wanted to know what she had to say. I was pretty sure that it was the same thing she was going to tell me before Lisa showed up.

And we’ve been interrupted quite a bit, so I never really got the chance to know.

Not only that, but before we left, she asked if she could stay in the bus, because she was sick.

“Hurry up! You need to get your ass on the stage!” Matt said, taking me from my thoughts, and nearly pushing me out onto it.

***

I was first to walk onto the bus out of us five. I began to walk directly to the back, when suddenly Lisa stopped me.

I looked behind her, to see that Andrea was sitting in the back, underneath a blanket.

I glanced back to Lisa, who staring at me intently, her face aglow.

“Uh…” I didn’t know what to say, I didn’t want to be rude, but I really wanted to check up on Andrea. Knowing that she had something to tell me, has had me on edge pretty much all day.

“I have some good news.” She told me.

“And what is that?” My curiosity got the best of me, though I wasn’t really paying attention, I was more interested in the look on Andrea’s face.

“Well. I’m pregnant!” She said smiling hugely.

“That’s ni-” Back this up a second. “What did you just say?” I asked, my eyes growing large.

“I said, I’m pregnant!” She said, still happy as could be.

“Oh my fucking god!” I said, as I picked her up, spinning us around. “This is great!” A smile plastered to my face.

Though I couldn't help but wonder, why I wasn’t as excited as I should have been. I mean I’m so fucking happy that I’m about to have a kid. But for some reason…

I smiled setting her down. “I’ll be right back, ‘kay?” I told Lisa, “I have to check up and see how Andrea’s doing.”

“Okay,” she said, “Hurry back.” She leaned up and kissed me hard, before letting me walk away.

I had to all put use a crowbar to get her to let go of me.

I made my way to where Andrea was, and saw that she hadn’t changed all day.

Her face lit up a little, as she saw me.

“Hey.” I said, sitting down next to her.

“Hey.” She said sitting up, “How was your day?”

“It was fine, same old, same old.” I laughed a little. My mind went back to what Lisa had just told me. I was still mind blown. I mumbled to myself. “I can’t believe…”

“You can’t believe what?” She asked me.

“Lisa…Just told me…”

“She told you what?” Her forehead creasing.

“That…well, you’ll know later.” I flashed her a grin.

“Oh…” Her forehead relaxed, but I couldn’t help but see that her eyes were full of worry.

“So…you called me earlier. What do have to tell me?” I asked her, dying to know.

“Well…” She but her lip. “It’s not that important…”

“Of course it is.” I saw her hesitate. “Anything you have to say is.”

“No…actually, it’s not…My parents called me, and they said that I should come home soon, because my little niece got sick, but apparently it was nothing bad, so I don’t have to leave. I had just thought that I would have to leave today, that‘s why I said I needed to tell you something…”

“Oh…”

*End flashback*

I just...this is so much to take in.

I was going to be a father in a matter of nine months.

I was ecstatic. There’s so many things to consider, which made me scared out of my fucking mind. But some how, I knew I was ready.

So many thoughts were buzzing through my mind, as everyone continued to talk around me.

And through all this, I was constantly wondering why I wasn’t so excited that it was Lisa who was soon to have my child.