No Strings Attached, Please?

Damn, I thought I was good at chemistry, but I guess I was wrong. I groaned in annoyance as I lift my head to find Nat’s eyes on me. He had a playful smirk forming on his lips when he watched my irritated face. I knew he enjoyed to put me through this hell of chemistry. I could say that chemistry wasn’t my best shot which made me think I wouldn’t be chasing scholarship to some chemistry major.

I went to McGregor’s residence this morning as Nat promised me a study date. I accepted the offer since I really needed it because the final exam was only three weeks away. I was really glad that Nat could help me with the lesson. Chemistry, Physics and Calc were my weakness while Nat aced those torturing subjects. Hell, he even got a great MIT score in Physics.

“You only need to draw another benzene structure over this and add ketene; then you put this into a long reaction like this…” he explained everything on the paper as he drew benzene that made me sick to my stomach. I didn’t understand; it seemed really easy for Nat to learn this entire thing, especially if you looked at his sparkling eyes when he explained the problem to me. It was more like Nat was meant to be a chemist.

“Oh God, I don’t know if I can make it out. God forbid I fail the test and I have to repeat my senior year.” I pulled my knees up and buried my face in them in frustration. I didn’t know if I could make it out.

“Hey, I said I will teach you, right? So, it’s my responsibility to make you get through this. I will make you understand everything in chemistry and physics,” he crooked a smile and then let me copy his work on that freaking benzene. "Now, you try again...."

I sighed deeply and pouted as I started over. I wrote all the benzene down and added an acylation reaction to it and remembered all the position in the reactant and then.... wait, this looked so simple and why on earth had I always had tendencies to have troubles with it?

I smiled and quickly wrote the product of the reaction.

"Well? You look happy..." Nat watched me with smile formed on his lips.

"I DID IT! I DID IT, NAT!" I shouted happily and then shoved myself onto Nat's chest, enveloping him with grateful hug. "Oh my God! I freaking did it!" I said still hugging him.

Nat laughed delightfully as I pulled away. "I can't believe it, Nat." Still grinning from the answered trouble, my cheek began to hurt. I grabbed the book and hugged it with dear life. Shit, I couldn't believe I could master it in the matter of seconds. Nat was seriously awesome.

"Fiuh... well, two down, one to go... Physics isn't actually that much more complicated than Chem..." Nat commented.

"Who said I'm gonna continue onto Physics? We've been studying for four hours, my back’s starting to ache. Gimme a break..." I stuck out my tongue and then huffed my back to the side of bed. I sprawled my body on Nat's bed (since we'd been studying on his bed, apparently).

Nat shook his head and let out a light chuckle. "Whatever the Queen says," he shrugged and then rested next to me. He supported his body on his elbow while he watched me sprawl on his bed as if it's mine. He smiled and watched me with the look I couldn't read. I could feel my cheeks were burning in the sheer of embarrassment when I realized he'd been staring at me solemnly with his beautiful eyes.

Why did The All Mighty have to create this creature in the first place! This perfect creature always made my heart skip easily. He could make me swoon without even trying. Screw Nat.

I rapidly averted my gaze from him and got up, just in case he would find me blushing. No, I couldn't let him know that I like him in an unhealthy amount.

"So! Your Mom likes to bake too, huh?" I said as I grabbed the sliced cake on the plate near the nightstand.

Nat's stare returned to normal and I noticed that he'd been staring at me like a weird dude. He rubbed his nape and chuckled nervously, "Yeah, though she's not a 'proper' housewife, she loves to cook a lot" Right, not a proper housewife, eh? When you're a stockholder, a powerful one, you're not a housewife.

I rolled my eyes playfully and chew the first bite of the Blueberry Cheesecake that Mrs. McGregor baked.

"Mom and Kat love to bake, they even have their own Baking Day on Saturday morning. I'm not really a fan of sweets, but Carl is... so I--"

"NEH-FUH-NEEL!!!!!" I abruptly shriked. Oh my God, Oh my God, Oh my God!!!! This was so fucking unreal!

Nat scrunched his eyebrows together as he looked me funny. I quickly swallowed the cake from paradise.

"This is fucking unreal, Nat! This is the best-est Blueberry Cheesecake I've ever tasted so far!! This was made in heaven! And yes, I put the extra 'est' on best since best will not begin to cover it!!!!!" I was out of breath when I described the feeling.

Nat suddenly chortled loudly when he just realized what happened.

"I thought you choked or the cake was bad and then...." he continued his laughter "You should see your face, Savannah. It's fucking priceless" he rubbed his stomach from the painful laughter.

I only pouted. What? So, it's my fault? It's his Mom, bless her hand to make this beautiful taste of Blueberry Cheesecake from heaven. Wow, I just realized the McGregors were perfect. Mr. McGregor was a chief in his department at his Google office, Mrs. McGregor was a stockholder slash beautiful baker with Hands of God, Carlton was the nicest person with high IQ and Nathaniel.... no, nothing could represent Nat's perfection.

Nat then stopped while he managed his giggle. His eyes snapped to mine and he pulled out his infamous smirk. He leaned forward as I began to feel my blood rush to my head. His face was so close to mine and then from out of nowhere his hand cupped my cheek.

Oh no… He's gonna kiss me? Here? In his room, on his bed?

I couldn't help but close my eyes tightly.

When I expected his lips touched mine, I jolted when his thumb wiped something near the corner of my mouth. I fluttered my eyes open and found him grinning as he wiped the cream cheese off of my face.

Oh kill me now. I was one hundred percent sure he thought that I want him to kiss me by the way I closed my eyes. Shit.

"You're such a drama queen, Sav." He didn't let his eyes leave me, nor moved his hand from my cheek.

I swallowed hard and managed to laugh normally under his intense stare. If I were standing, I would have already collapsed because my legs turned into jelly. I could feel my blood rushing to my head right now, because my head burnt and my cheeks felt hot, and hotter on the part where Nat’s hand was.

We were enveloped in silence for a moment as we exchanged glances. From this distance, I could see how brown his eyes were. There were lighter flakes on his eyes that made them look so bright. His eyes reminded me of honey and Nathaniel Sean McGregor. His eyes were so remarkable and just beautiful... Lynn was so damn lucky...

"Does... does… uhh…" Nat started but he never pulled away. We're still stuck in this closeness.

"...Does?" I arched my eyebrows.

Nat cleared his throat, "Does anyone ever tell you… uhh..."

"What?"

"Tell you.. .uhh nevermind." He chuckled nervously.

"Nat!" I warned. I knew there's something up with him. Ugh.

"Nothing, well let's get back to the lesson..." he then pulled away and was about to grab his Calc book but I held his nape in the position so he wouldn't let go. His eyes widened when we're only an inch closer.

"Seriously what? Does anyone ever tell me what? Does anyone ever tell me how cheap I am? Yes, I got that a million times..." I groaned.

Nat shook his head vigorously, "NO! That's not what I meant!" I looked that him curiously.

"It's uhh…does anyone ever tell you how… uhh how beautiful you are...?" he stared at me with his uncomfortable look. My hand on his nape slowly dropped and I was so stunned there. Did he just call me beautiful? Man, he sounded so serious about it...

"Nat..." I breathed out.

"I'm sorry... I shouldn't… I… it's not my place umm..."

"You think I'm beautiful?" I confirmed to ensure if my ears weren't wrong.

Nat didn't reply, he looked down and didn't dare to look me in the eye. No, he didn't think I'm beautiful, he's just asking. I bit down my lower lip and sighed.

"I don't know if you notice it or not, but you have the brownest eyes that make me feel peaceful every time I see them, you have the most perfect red hair that any human being ever had and that inviting smile of yours that always..."

My heart just dropped on the floor. I suddenly couldn't breathe properly as he mentioned those sweet words. It's corny, yes, but.... Even though it sounded so cheesy, I couldn't hide the frantic rumble in my chest. I was lost for words. Not in million years would I ever imagine Nat could say stuff like that. He made me sound so perfect and beautiful...

I wasn't being delusional when he called me beautiful. He was serious about it.

"You're just so beautiful, River..." he said at last. His words made me jump to the brink of sanity, I couldn't describe the feeling. I wanted to cry and I wanted to say million thank yous to him but it didn't come out but I pulled at his nape and wrapped my arms around his neck instead.

I don’t know what happened with my system, but my conscious told me to kiss Nat in that moment. I couldn't tell how happy I was to hear his adoration at me. Did it mean he's in love with me as much as I loved him? No, I don’t know if I could call it love. I just had some growing feelings for him and I didn't know how to call it. The only guy I've ever loved in my whole life was Dante and I guess I wasn't ready to love again, to be hurt again.

It was when my eyes snapped open a little to find Nat didn't push me away, he just let me kiss him instead. Oh God, I needed his lips, I needed him, I needed everything about him. Screw it if he's taken, Lynn could go to hell.

I resumed kissing him, moving my hands up to tangle in his dark brown hair. Nat's answer gave me a hint to push him to the edge as I felt the movement on my lips, he kissed me back. It wasn't like some lusty, impatient kiss; it was more like slow, passionate and needy kiss in a romantic way. It was the kiss to show how far you've gotten emotionally and I was just hoping it was the kiss to show Nat felt the same way with me.

It took minutes to break away from Nat's kiss. I couldn't help it, I couldn't stop kissing him, it felt so right to kiss him, but I knew I had to pull myself back since it's not good for Nat. God damn, he's in love with his stupid girlfriend. He didn't want to play around with his girlfriend because he's really serious with Lynn, but... he didn't push me away.

I quickly pulled away when I found his hands were already on my hips as it made a loud smooch sound. Nat opened his eyes back again and stared me with confusion. Just as I expected him to push me away from the bed because he found the reality I heard him growl under his breath. His look turned into something I knew as need. He abruptly pushed me onto my back, climbing on top of me. He encaged me with his hands and I couldn't hide my red cheeks more.

We stared at each other for a couple of moments before he crushed his lips again to mine. The kiss was more eager as if he wanted to swallow me alive. I squeezed my head shut as I collected myself back again instead of giving in. I tried my hardest to push his chest away from me and we unlocked our lips together.

"Nathaniel..." I called out but it sounded more like moan. Oh fuck.

Nat ignored me and he came back again but I held his chest stronger. I couldn't let him do this. He was out of consciousness. He didn't like me that way, he didn't want me the way I wanted him. As much as I wanted him, I had to stop this mess because he would regret this afterward.

"What!" he barked when I held his chest as he moved above me.

"We can't do this, you have a girlfriend that you really love, you don't want to cheat on her again. You told me..." I said between breaths because god damn it, he took my breath away with his lips.

"I don't fucking care about her, all I care about is you, River..." he was about to capture my lips again but I slapped him. He moaned in pain and glared to me.

"Nat! You're not thinking straight! It's the hormones that are taking over. I am not your girlfriend. And I don't want to fuck it up with you anymore..."

Nat paused; his eyes gazed at me with hurt. He swallowed hard and watched me intensely.

"You don't understand, Savannah... you will never understand... please… just let me..." the sadness now washed over his eyes, he looked at me with an emotion that I couldn't read.

"I can't do that, Nat. I care about you, we're friends. I don't want to screw my matchmaking job by doing this all over again. I know you're in love with Lynn, you don't want to lose her, I can't and I don't want to hurt you... I want you to be happy..." I said looking straight into his eyes, hoping this would end before the lust drove me insane again.

Nat still watched me and whispered, "But...I am happy with you..." was the last word he said and I was stunned. Did it mean he wanted me the same way I wanted him? Did he say he liked me the way I liked him? Did it mean that he wanted to be with me?

I could have answered him, but my throat closed up at the thought so I just let him in. As he got the hint, he fell above me. His hands were tangled with mine but then he brushed away some of my hair and bent down to kiss my neck causing me to squirm under the feel of his lips against the sensitive skin there.

Shit, I taught him to kiss and God, he was so good at it. He learned the lesson that neck was a sensitive part. Nat didn't know that his kissing my neck was like stomping down on the gas of the engine that was my sex drive. He kissed me, not in the gentle way that made my heart race but with a hunger that made my whole body ache. The hand that had been behind my ear slowly moved down my body, the feel of his fingertips on my neck causing pure need. Oh God…

His honey blue eyes watched me as I began to run one of my hands through his dark brown hair, the other one undoing the buttons of his shirt. I held him close, grasping at his shirt once I had finished with the buttons, and Nat only followed obediently. The lust kicked in which made me want to touch him everywhere. I wanted him, I wanted him right now.

I let go of my hands so that I could push apart his shirt and run my hands over the warm skin of his chest. Fuck, fuck, fuck. My fingertips against his warm chest felt so fucking good. He wasn't lanky or skinny like people always assumed but he's just nicely built instead. My eyes trailed from his chest down to his waist where I spotted a nice v-line built.

Nat's hand continued its journey while Nat tilted his head and deepened the kiss. His fingers slid past my collar bones, over the fabric of my flowery shirt, and hovered between my breasts. They toyed with the buttons of my shirt before undoing them but that was enough to open up more cleavage and reveal the lacy fabric of my polka dot bra. His hand came to rest on my hip. My sensors felt his fingers caressing the exposed skin where my shirt was riding up.

He easily slid off my shirt and tossed it away to the side of bed and quickly unbuttoned my jeans. His pant was vigorous and then he got my jeans and slid the jeans and my panties down, giving him an easy access to my pussy.

"God, you're beautiful down here Savannah..." he said as he rubbed my pussy. I couldn't help but blush as he complimented me again.

His breath was everywhere, his hot breath felt against my ear and damn, he's super hot.

Nat came back to my neck and was kissing, licking, and tasting every inch of skin that he could get his mouth on. Nat forcefully removed one of my hands from his head, taking a section of skin between his teeth and sucking hard.

"Shit, Savannah..." he helplessly breathed out. "I've always wanted to do this with you..."

I gasped under my breath upon hearing his response. He had always wanted to do what? Oh my God, he'd been imagining this thing happening? Nat finally left my neck, kissing his way over the exposed skin between the undone buttons of my shirt.

"I want you, Savannah. I've always wanted you..." he panted undoing one button at the bottom of my shirt and resting his hand on my stomach.

"But... Lynn..." Savannah fucking Connor, stop arguing over something you actually don't fucking care about! All you care about is Nat's body and dick. I desperately wanted him now. It was different with our old fucking days. This time was different because I was in love with him, a deep one so I wanted to show him how much I loved him.

He stopped me from talking as he came back and kissed me hard. I shut my eyes close and gave in because he made me feel so good. So good that I didn't realize that his fingers were already rubbing up the length of my womanhood. The sudden contact made me squirm and I jolted in an instant as I gasped into Nat's mouth. He moved his fingers in a way that I couldn't help the whimper that escaped my mouth.

"Are you okay, Sav?" Nat's concerned voice brought me back as I watched him. But I couldn't answer him. It's just the way how he felt me up was pure ecstasy, he seemed to know exactly what to do. His touch wasn't too hard or too soft, his fingers came to the right aim. He was rubbing in circles and grazed over my clit. But then for a moment I didn't felt his fingers anymore; they just disappeared. I opened my eyes to find Nat with a worries look hovering above me.

"Nathaniel, please... don't stop..."

Nat chuckled lightly and kissed my forehead but then I cupped his cheeks and forced my lips on him, trying to convince him that I desperately wanted him. I didn't want and forbidden him to stop touching me.

He pulled away from my lips which made me to open my eyes back again from the kiss. I turned to him and asked inwardly what's wrong with him but that's only to know he slid one of his hands as I spread my legs to give his talented fingers easier access. I was lost in the feeling where Nat's thumb found my clit and rubbed circles over it. When another moan escaped my mouth I figured that the feel of Nat's finger was torturous because I wanted the real thing.

"Nat…" I moaned, "Please... please I want you now…"

Nat smirked above me, satisfied what he built up in me.

"You want me to what?" Damn, did he have to do that? I hated teasing. Then he raised his back as if he wanted to let me go, but I groaned, letting him now that I didn't want to just play around as I pulled his neck and kissed him hard.

"Fuck me now, hard and fast" I muffled between his lips. I knew he couldn't make out what I was talking about between our lips, but he read my mind and smiled into the kiss. He didn't wait to undo the clasp of my bra with a single hand while the other hand struggled with his jeans. My hands left his nape and then helped him to unbutton his jeans and then slid them down. As I saw a huge tent already formed up there, I played with the waist band of his underwear. Meanwhile he pushed up my already undo bra and then buried his head in the valley between my breasts.

I felt that both of his hands were now on my breasts, they began to squeeze in one direction that made me moan even more, and I spread my legs widely giving him access to get in between me. Nat stared at me with beautiful smile, he let go my breasts as he bent down his head before sucking my left breast really hard, so hard that I jumped. Before I realized it, his hands came to my upper thighs and he positioned himself between my legs.

In one quick moment, I could feel his dick ripped up my hole and then thrust deeper making me cry in ecstasy. He then thrust out making me suck in sharp breath. In a swift moment he thrust back inside again. Nat made a rhythmic motion with his huge shaft while I yelled out his name. I heard my own voice and I could tell I sounded like a cheap whore. Nat kept the rhythm as he screamed a curse out of his beautiful mouth.

"Oh Savannah… uhh..." he yelled out. I was sure our noise could wake up the whole neighborhood, but what I was really sure was all the people inside McGregor's residence were able to hear us. But I didn't fucking care. I just wanted Nat.

"Uhh... uhh... Nat yes... harder Nat… harder..." I moaned. Nat obeyed my order and went harder; it was painful but amazing at the same time and I couldn't stop. As Nat still kept his harder pace, he reached my face and made me open my eyes that had been entirely shut while we're making love.

"Look at me, Savannah. I want you to know that it’s me who makes you feel good, not anyone else. It's me..." he said, breathless. I nodded aimlessly and watched his blissful stare. He crooked a smile and then squeezed my upper thigh tightly before he thrust faster. Fuck, Nat was a talented porn star, I believed.

"I'm almost there..." he squeaked and kept his fast pace in me while I thrust my hips into him to help him. I knew the moment I saw his eyes fell to the back of his head, something burst in me and then it just triggered my orgasm to top up. When it finally ended there were stars flying everywhere and my toes curled tightly. I closed my eyes as I managed a breathless gasp. I heard Nat doing the same.

Suddenly Nat fell down on top of me and kissed my cheek.

"Thank you, you're amazing, Savannah..." was all he said as he secured me with his strong hands. He weighted like a giant and I was struggling to breathe, but I didn't want to let go because I felt safe in his arms. His breath tickled the hair on my neck and suddenly I felt wrong. So wrong. I regretted what I've done with him, we shouldn't have done this.

Nat raised himself off me and then fell back to my side. I turned my head to him and watched his captivating eyes again. I was a bad friend indeed because I couldn't keep my promise to stay away from him in sexual way. Carlton was right that it was unhealthy for both of us; it just made me fall for him deeper.

Nat smiled as I watched him, he tucked the strands of my hair behind my ear and wiped the beads of sweat on my forehead. He leaned in again and kissed the tip of my nose making me chuckle lightly because it tickled. He took my hand and then intertwined his hand with mine, playing with my fingers.

"I like you, Savannah River..." he whispered.

My breath hitched on my throat as I widened my eyes. What? What did he say?

"Maybe you haven't realized it..." he managed between his panting breaths."But, I really like you... I really like you a lot, I want you to be mine..." he stared at me meaningfully. Meanwhile I blinked in disbelief. I couldn't muster an answer. I just… never realized it that he developed feeling for me. It shouldn't have happened...

I knew I liked him too, but I was scared. It was fine with me if we fucked without him sharing the same feelings as me. But in fact, he liked me back. I did play around with guys, but I didn't want to play with his feelings. He's different and I was a slut. As much as I wanted him I didn't deserve him.

No, he's just confused, mixed up with the feeling because of our old fucking days. He didn't like me that way, it's just the expression how he's satisfied with the sex. He didn't like me, of course he didn't! He's in love with Lynnette Sonekiss. He'd been chasing the girl since 8th grade, he stalked her, he wanted her, and he wanted to protect her.

It was the sweetest reason I heard from boys toward their girlfriends, and just by the way he said it toward Lynn already made me conclude how head over heels he was with Lynn. He didn't want anyone else. So if he said he liked me, it's probably bullshit.

"Sav? Say something please..." he ran his hand down my forearm. His eyes were worried about rejection, it clearly showed.

I had to assure him that he was confused about his feelings. He didn't like me. Even if it hurt me, I would cope with it. I wanted him to be happy with Lynn and I could live without him. Even it hurt like a bitch to know the guy I liked really much loved someone else, I swore I could deal with it. Even though I couldn't hide the fact that I would be in misery without him.

I whimpered inwardly, it hurt to hear he liked me meanwhile I couldn't express my feelings. I got up and began to grab my shirt off the floor, sliding it back on without trying to clasp my bra back.

"Whoa, wait…where are you going?" he held my hand but I snatched it back and slid my jeans on. I clenched my teeth tightly as I choked back my tears.

"Savannah!" he called out.

"I should be going home," I said hoarsely, biting down my lip. I gathered my things and shoved them into my backpack. Nat got off from his bed while his jeans hung on his knees, he managed to button his jeans but i swiftly made my way out from his room.

"Oh Savannah, you guys finished with the studying?" I found Mrs. McGregor folding some tacos for a snack on my way out of McGregor's residence.

"Yeah, thanks for your kindness, Ma’am. I'm sorry, I should go now..." I smiled forcefully and nodded politely at the elderly woman.

"But, I've already made you guys some--"

"Savannah! Please!" I heard Nat screaming my name while rushing down the stairs.

"It's nice to see you, Ma’am. Thank you, and see you soon." I said quickly and didn't turn around but ran to the front door instead. I ran through McGregor's lawn and then luckily found a cab that passed on the street.

I hailed the cab and shoved myself in and then told the cabbie to drive away. I saw Nat walk out his door with unbuttoned shirt and jeans that looked awkward, he was about to catch me up but he failed because my cab already drove away.

"RIVER!" was the last fading scream I heard from back. In that moment I tore my eyes away and sobbed hard. I didn't realize before that I fell for him so hard until it hurt to know he liked me back, the feeling he shouldn't have developed, the feeling he had mixed up with sex.

I covered my wild tears and then looked down to notice I hadn't buttoned the entire button on my shirt so my bra peeked out and my jeans were riding down. Great, Mrs. McGregor probably already thought I was a slut because I slept with her son that already had girlfriend.

I was screwed.