Keep the Faith
I'm Gonna go to Sleep Now
I got up and made my way towards the bunks without saying anything to the others. I haven't been feeling like myself lately. None of us have. I just want to be alone right now-which is really shocking, for me.
It all started with silly coments and rumours on the Internet but then it escalated. They started to get nastier, more malicious. Things were being said that could completely ruin a guy. Not just hurtful things. Things that, if believed, could cause serious trouble.
Unfortunately for us, they were believed. It spread through our fan-base fast. Some abandoned us. The rest were divided. I even had to break up a fight at one of the shows.
For some reason, Gerard's been getting the worst of it. Rumours about him drinking again and taking drugs. What kind of sicko would make something up like that? Clearly someone who's never been through it. And then there's the constant bitching about his wife, Lyn-Z, who, in all honesty, is a wonderful person. Is this what I have to look forward to being married to Jamia? I hope not. In saying all this, we've all had the ever-popular, "You've changed." It's pathetic really.
I was actually happy at how we'd changed. We've grwon as people (in my case, I wish it had been physically) and we've dicovered ourselves. We've overcome our demons and we're much happier for it. How can that possibly be a bad thing? Apparently happiness makes us sell-outs. How crazy is that? I don't get why these people, who barely even know us, feel they have the right to judge us in such a way. I don't understand why they got so angry all of a sudden. Is this the price we pay for trying to help them?
Yeah, we tried to help them in any way possible. There's nothing we wouldn't give to make their lives a little brighter and to see them happy but they threw it back in our faces. It is kind of worth it though when you meet the rare few who're still there for us. Then it feels as though our message hasn't been completely wasted. But is one smiling face scattered throughout all these crowds of thousands of jeering ones really enough? Maybe. Or not? I don't know. Ugh...I need to stop thinking about it so much. I'm gonna go to sleep now. Maybe in the morning it'll all be over. Maybe I'll wake up and it'll all be just a bad dream.
It all started with silly coments and rumours on the Internet but then it escalated. They started to get nastier, more malicious. Things were being said that could completely ruin a guy. Not just hurtful things. Things that, if believed, could cause serious trouble.
Unfortunately for us, they were believed. It spread through our fan-base fast. Some abandoned us. The rest were divided. I even had to break up a fight at one of the shows.
For some reason, Gerard's been getting the worst of it. Rumours about him drinking again and taking drugs. What kind of sicko would make something up like that? Clearly someone who's never been through it. And then there's the constant bitching about his wife, Lyn-Z, who, in all honesty, is a wonderful person. Is this what I have to look forward to being married to Jamia? I hope not. In saying all this, we've all had the ever-popular, "You've changed." It's pathetic really.
I was actually happy at how we'd changed. We've grwon as people (in my case, I wish it had been physically) and we've dicovered ourselves. We've overcome our demons and we're much happier for it. How can that possibly be a bad thing? Apparently happiness makes us sell-outs. How crazy is that? I don't get why these people, who barely even know us, feel they have the right to judge us in such a way. I don't understand why they got so angry all of a sudden. Is this the price we pay for trying to help them?
Yeah, we tried to help them in any way possible. There's nothing we wouldn't give to make their lives a little brighter and to see them happy but they threw it back in our faces. It is kind of worth it though when you meet the rare few who're still there for us. Then it feels as though our message hasn't been completely wasted. But is one smiling face scattered throughout all these crowds of thousands of jeering ones really enough? Maybe. Or not? I don't know. Ugh...I need to stop thinking about it so much. I'm gonna go to sleep now. Maybe in the morning it'll all be over. Maybe I'll wake up and it'll all be just a bad dream.
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Is it too short because I wasn't sure? If so I could try and add more to it.