Keep the Faith

I was depressed and suicidal that night. I knew how I was going to kill myself. The bottle of pills and the razor were already laid out on the desk for me to use. I sat on the edge of my bed with more than a few pills in my hand. I was ready to leave the Earth for good when my stereo turned on and I heard Gerard's voice through the speakers. I got up and tried to turn it off, but it wouldn't turn off, so I unplugged it. It still played on and on. I gave up and just sat on my bed to wait the song out.

The next thing I knew, a shaft of light hit my skin, and I knew I was still alive. I sat up and stared at the pills and razor that were still there, untouched by my hands. I got up and just threw them in the garbage can. I knew that the stereo had turned on because it wanted me to live, they wanted me to live.

It's been three years since it happened and I still think that the band knew what I was going to do and they decided that they wanted me to live. I see them and just looking into their eyes I still think they know me by heart. I vow to never hurt myself ever again. These are the heroes I believe in and they will always be that for me even when I'm old.