Status: Up and Running
Just Another Life Story
5/22/10
Mood; Fearful, Lost, and Alone
So today I'm sleeping over at my friend Emmy's and I thought it was going to be a pleasant thing(like it usually is). So, we were painting and I get a text from my friend Jimmy(he has a thing for me but I had to turn him down because I have a boyfriend who lives in Illinois).
She asked me about him, and at the same time my friend messaged me on MSN forgiving over and over about yesterday when there was some confusion between Jimmy, Me and Her so Emmy thought she was talking about Josh and she went off about how I shouldn't keep going for him...
And as soon as she said that I felt a huge pain in my chest, like I was being compressed into a tiny space, it made it hard to breath. I figured out it was a panic attack... and it was one of the worse I've ever felt,,,
I now am laying on her floor thinking, I wish I had someone here to comfort me. Or at least understand... It's hard when my friends don't always understand how vivid my feelings are, and harsh, raw they are. I just wish someone in this town could save me...
I am scared, alone, and frightened. Someone please, save me.
So today I'm sleeping over at my friend Emmy's and I thought it was going to be a pleasant thing(like it usually is). So, we were painting and I get a text from my friend Jimmy(he has a thing for me but I had to turn him down because I have a boyfriend who lives in Illinois).
She asked me about him, and at the same time my friend messaged me on MSN forgiving over and over about yesterday when there was some confusion between Jimmy, Me and Her so Emmy thought she was talking about Josh and she went off about how I shouldn't keep going for him...
And as soon as she said that I felt a huge pain in my chest, like I was being compressed into a tiny space, it made it hard to breath. I figured out it was a panic attack... and it was one of the worse I've ever felt,,,
I now am laying on her floor thinking, I wish I had someone here to comfort me. Or at least understand... It's hard when my friends don't always understand how vivid my feelings are, and harsh, raw they are. I just wish someone in this town could save me...
I am scared, alone, and frightened. Someone please, save me.