Lies and Broken Smiles

When I arrive home mum and Jess are sitting on the couch waiting for me.... Oh this has to be good.

"Darling sit down." Mother says

"Whats wrong?" My mind floods with the horrible thoughts I look over at Jess for some kind of clue, and I notice she won't look at me, that's when it hits me.
That bitch told!

It's okay, it's okay, lie, you can lie. ED monster says

"Jessica told me she heard you throwing up."

"What? No.." I say

"Stop lying." Jessica says

"I'm not lying, that is disgusting."

"I'm concerned with how much weight you've lost." Mother then says

"I haven't lost any weight."

"Don't lie to me I can see that you have."

"Just a little." My lips start to quiver, they are trying to take THIS away from me, and I can't let
that happen.

"How much are you?"

"I don't know."

"Don't lose anymore."

"I won't." Again lies

"She's lying! She doesn't eat and if she does she throws it up!" Jess yells standing up. I
stand up to.

"I'm not lying!"

"Maybe it would help if you saw someone." Mother says

"I'm going." I walk towards the door and get a few steps before I hear Jessica's foot steps
running after me.

"I'm just trying to help you! Why won't you let me help!"

"I don't need your help! I'm fine alone!"

I walk off leaving her there.

I end up at a park, I love parks they are so nice. I sit down on a swing and start to swing.
Right now I really wish Dante was here. Maybe I could call him... what would I say, I wouldn't know what to say, I can't let him know about this.
Thinking about it gets me angry all over again, it's sick but I want this, I don't want to let it go, to have it leave the thought scares me so much.