Status: Eeekk. i need to catch up
Dear Diary
1/14/11
Dear Diary,
It seems like everyone is just ignoring me. Idk, maybe it's me or something. I've been told that i block people out, and i dont mean too. It kinda makes me mad though.. i dont know what to do about it. I tell everyone everything, so i don't know how i block them out?
Me and Josiah are stil broken up and i don't think were getting back together. I mean i would love too, but i guess everything happens for a reason, and so im not gunna let it ruin my life. I think im making the right choice by just moving on? I can't let people keep hurting me like this, and people who are worth my hurt, wouldn't hurt me, right? He's deffinatly not worth my tears, or my heart breaking. I'll find someone someday that will make just as happy, if not more. I'll miss him, but it's hard to be friends with your ex.. you just start to fall in love with him again. I can't do it... not this time. I think it's right to move on. I really only have two friends that support my choices. I wish i had more, but i take what i got. It's gunna hurt more to let go, then the heartbreak it's self, but i know im making the right decision. Everyone says i deserve better... but to me, there's no one better out there. I've cried over him way too much, and im sick of it. Today for the first time in a long time.. i didn't write his name on my hand. Sometimes following your heart means losing your mind..
Cheer competition tomorrow morning.. wish me luck!(: <3
It seems like everyone is just ignoring me. Idk, maybe it's me or something. I've been told that i block people out, and i dont mean too. It kinda makes me mad though.. i dont know what to do about it. I tell everyone everything, so i don't know how i block them out?
Me and Josiah are stil broken up and i don't think were getting back together. I mean i would love too, but i guess everything happens for a reason, and so im not gunna let it ruin my life. I think im making the right choice by just moving on? I can't let people keep hurting me like this, and people who are worth my hurt, wouldn't hurt me, right? He's deffinatly not worth my tears, or my heart breaking. I'll find someone someday that will make just as happy, if not more. I'll miss him, but it's hard to be friends with your ex.. you just start to fall in love with him again. I can't do it... not this time. I think it's right to move on. I really only have two friends that support my choices. I wish i had more, but i take what i got. It's gunna hurt more to let go, then the heartbreak it's self, but i know im making the right decision. Everyone says i deserve better... but to me, there's no one better out there. I've cried over him way too much, and im sick of it. Today for the first time in a long time.. i didn't write his name on my hand. Sometimes following your heart means losing your mind..
Cheer competition tomorrow morning.. wish me luck!(: <3