Dear Diary

Some things i let go and forget about. But other things, i can't let go. It reaches a point. It's one thing to have your "friends" say that your worthless, but it's another to have your dad call you worthless. it hurts.. to know that someone thinks your child it worthless. I try to let it go, and know that im not worthless. Because i know i'm not... but it's hard to forget.
I dont know where my sister is, and she hasn't been home in like... four days. She has her daughter with her.. hopefully. She has moved away from her abusive boyfriend, and now i think she's moving back in. She's done this mulitple amounts of times. Each time i cry a little bit harder when she leaves. It's tearing our family apart and i dont think they care. i can't see everyone being apart, and i wish it didnt have to be this way.
Im not talking to Josiah either (suprise right?) but i miss my besst friend/brother. I wish things could realy change. The one thing that i can do?
Pray for a miracle.