Black Star Love

I thought about calling Mickey and telling him that I was already at his apartment, but then again, I took the opportunity to go see Gee and Sophie.

Gerard wasn’t home only Sophie.

When she asked me to come in, I noticed that she was a little nervous, so I asked, “What’s wrong?” as we sat on the couch.

She looked down at her lap, and smiled, “Frankie, I… I… I think I’m pregnant …”

“Oh my god!” I threw my arms around her. “Congratulations.”

“Thanks.” She pulled away, but still wouldn’t look at me.

Something was bugging her, “Your not happy?”

“Of course I am,” She paused and turned to look at me, “It’s just that … what if Gerard doesn’t want to be a dad. I mean he has never talked about having a baby and I don’t want him to leave me-”

“Sophie,” I placed my hands on her shoulders, “Calm down ok.”

Ever since we were young, I don’t recall Gerard ever talking about having a kid, but I do recall him talking about the perfect girl that he wanted to marry and that girl is Sophie.

I still don’t know how she and Gerard hooked up after he acted like an idiot on the phone the first time they spoke to each other, but they did. Sophie has sacrificed a lot of thing for Gee, I know Gee would never leave Sophie because she’s pregnant. I mean a baby is made up of something that two people feel for each other right?… well unless someone gets raped, but I know this didn’t happen here.

“Frank, I’m scared…”

I chuckled, and pulled into an embrace, “Sophie, there’s nothing to be scared or worried about. I know that Gee is going to be happy … but if I’m wrong …you know I’m here for you.”

Remember when I ran away to my mama Linda’s house and thought that I was falling for Sophie, and then I knew that I live her a sister? Well I do love her like a sister. When ever I had a problem and needed help, I would always come to her when Gee wasn’t around, and she had always come to me when she needed something, like right now.

And god forgive me, I know I’ve known Gee longer, but if Gerard leaves Sophie because of her being pregnant, he is going to regret ever being with her in the first place.

“Thank you Frankie…" she lifted her head up from my chest and kissed me on the cheek softly.

“What are you guys doing?” Gerard’s voice made me jump up of the couch and let go of Sophie.

“Gee, babe, I didn’t hear you come in.” Sophie walked over and wrapped her arm around him

“I know.” He replied. The whole time Gee was glaring at me.

I think I was in trouble. “I uh, I got to go.”

Sophie sat back down on the couch and Gee walked me to the door. As soon as we were out of sight, he grabbed me by the shoulder. “What the hell was that Frank?”

I pulled away from his grip, “She wasn’t feeling well and I was trying to comfort her Gee. That was all.”

He studied me trying to see if I was telling the truth. I couldn’t believe this. Did he actually think I was lying to him?

He sighed and took a paper out of his pocket, “Sorry … Do you think you could do me a favor?… well after you come back? Mickey told me where you were going.”

Because of the fact that I lived far away from Gee, I wasn’t able to keep in touch with him. “Um, sure, what is it?”

"Could you drive to this place and pick something up for me?”

“Yeah.” I replied as I took the paper and placed it into my pocket.

When I walked over to Mickey’s apartment, he was on his way out. When he noticed I was standing there, a smile spread on his face “Hey Frankie.” he took me by surprised when he wrapped his arm around me. I couldn’t help but to hug him back. “I saw your car outside when Gee left and I was about to head downstairs.”

“Oh, I was uh, talking to Sophie…” Mickey looked so different. In a good way. His eyeliner was actually put on properly, and he looked happy.

“She told you already? Isn’t it great?” He sounded so enthusiastic.

He locked his door and we made our way to the elevator. “Yeah, she told me already. When did she tell you?”

He fidgeted with his keys, “Oh the other day when she picked me up, she said I deserve to know after being good.”

As the elevator got to the last floor and the door opened, but Mickey just stood there. I turned to look at him, he was looking down at his shoes. I placed my hand on his shoulder ,“Umm, can I tell you something?” he asked looking up at me.

I nodded.

“I …I… told Gerard about Dave.” His eyes glistered with tears.

“What happened?”

He started sobbing. “He hates me,” I wrapped my arms around him and let him sob into my chest. “He said he wouldn’t talk to me if I didn’t take therapy.” he mumble some other things, but I wasn’t able to understand him.

I couldn’t help but to think if that was all that Gee told Mickey, but I didn’t feel like asking. When Mickey pulled away he looked up and made eye contact with me, “The lady says I’m doing better and I … uh, go to rehab. I’m scared frank.”

“Of what Mickey?”

“Of fucking up again…” he whispered.

I cupped his face, “Mickey, don’t worry you know I’m here for you.”

“Yeah, but why?”

“Be… because I love you,” I had no idea of what I was saying, but it felt good to say it, cause as Mickey heard me say this, his face lit up like when he told me he knew about Sophie being pregnant. “Thanks.”

As we got into the car and I put on my seatbelt, I asked , “Mickey, what did you talk about with Danny?”