He's My Brother's Best Friend and My Enemy, This Can't Be Good!

I heard the sound of screaming and groaned to myself. It was only three in the morning. The sound was coming from Lexis's room again. I got up out of bed and walked over to her room. She was standing in her crib screaming her lungs out with tears running down her face.

"Lexis ssh baby it's all right," I picked her up and walked around the room with her in my arms. Her cries were still coming but the volume subsided. After walking around the room for ten minutes I put her back into her crib. When I put her down she started to scream again. I walked back to the crib and picked her up again.

"What is with the crying?" A groggy Parker questioned as he walked into the room. I could tell he was surprised to see me by the look on his face.

"She's doesn't want to be in her crib." I had gotten her to stop crying again. I figured Cassadee wasn't getting up because she knew someone must be in here.

"Here I'll take her. You seem tired," He walked towards me and took Lexis out of my hands. I was going to protest but he walked back to his room with Lexis before I could protest.

I walked back into my room and laid down in my bed. The clock now read three thirty. Only two more hours before I had to be up for school. I grabbed my phone off my desk and decided to listen to music to try to fall asleep, it worked.

There was a loud knock at my door followed by the yells of Miranda. "Josylne get your ass up! You have twenty minutes before we have to leave!"

Shit. I must have slept through my alarm! I ran out of bed and got dressed quickly. My make up was still on from yesterday so I didn't bother touching it up. I walked downstairs grabbed an energy bar and got into my car. Parker's truck was gone so I figured the other had gone with him. I pulled out of the drive way and drove myself to school.

As I approached my locker I saw Max and Ava waiting for me. "What's up?" I asked.

"You don't have to be at practice today," Max said.

"Thank god!" I was running on no energy today. My plans were to go home and sleep and then sleep more. Max chuckled and then headed off with Ava.

***
I was not having a good day at all. I was sitting in my photography class trying to figure out how to leave. Not only that but I had been holding in a mental break down since first period. Apparently Parker and Charlie were back to being "official.” It was all anyone could talk about and it was making me sick to my stomach. In first period I walked in on them making out and then in third I saw them sitting in the back of theater doing the same thing. I was not looking forward to sixth period.

I don't know who I was more mad at, myself or Parker. I mean, I know he's a player but really. He just kissed me in the airport a week ago and here he is making out with Charlie. Like really. But then again I should have known better. I'm the stupid one for thinking he might actually like me. I'm the idiot for letting myself get hurt again. Stupid boys, I should just not like anyone then I would never get hurt.

I couldn't take this pain in my heart anymore so I got up from where I sat in photography and walked up to Ms. Doll's desk.

"Can I go to the nurse?"

"Sure thing Ms. Emmerce. Let me just right you a pass."

She gave me the pass and I walked to the office. I sat down in the room waiting for the nurse to come and tend to me. I wasn't really sick so I was hoping she would just let me leave without doing anything. After explaining to the nurse why I was here she let me leave. Since I was seventeen I was allowed to sign myself out of school. I got in my car and quickly texted Miranda before pulling out of my space in the school parking lot.

It was Tuesday so that meant Cassadee wasn't at the house. Every Tuesday her and Lexis would go to Trevor's work to spend the day and eat lunch with him. It was their family time since they didn't get that opportunity often. I decided to go home and sulk in my room.

I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a couple of snack before heading into my room. I logged onto my computer and stared at the screen. I decided to finish editing some of the pictures I took from Disney World. Like I said photography calmed me. I turned on my music just so I could tune out reality even more.

I finished editing pictures around one, meaning I had another hour before anyone came home. Holding in my breakdown was working at the moment but I knew it was coming. I decided to lock my door just in case someone came home. I turned up my music louder and laid on my bed holding my pillow pet. Much to my dismay one of my most depressing songs on my iPod came on. That's all it took for the tears to stream down my face.

I quietly sang to the song as the tears fell from my eyes. I really was miserable without him. If only life was simple and I could have a cute boy sing me love songs.

I heard a car pull into the driveway. I got up out of bed to see who it was. Cassadee was carrying Lexis in the house. Instead of going down to help I stayed in my room. I heard footsteps so I figured she was putting Lex down for a nap.

There was a knock on my door. "Jos you okay?"

I lowered my music and responded yes through the door. There was no way she was going to see me like this. I could only imagine what my face look liked after crying for the last hour.

"Josylne let me. I know your lying." I sighed and got up. I opened the door and walked back to my bed. "Wow it look likes the ice cream exploded in here."

I ignored it and stayed laying down in my bed.

"Josylne have you been crying?" She asked. I turned to face her so I didn't have to answer. She didn't say anything but got up to close the door and then hugged me. "Jos what’s wrong?”

I shook my head. "Parker."

"What did he do Jos? Weren't you guys fine yesterday?" She pulled away making me face her.

I nodded. I told her everything that had happened before I left from school. She came up with the conclusion that maybe it wasn't his fault maybe Charlie sensed something and wanted to make me jealous. Whatever the case Parker went along with it. I was mad that she was standing up for him but I guess she could be right.

I stayed in my room the rest of the night. Miranda, Jayden, and the devil themselves got home around sixish and I guess Cassadee told them not to bother me. I went back to listening to depressing music. I decided to talk to Jake.

Jake told me that Parker was probably just being an idiot. He believed Parker liked me too. I told him buy and crawled back into my bed. It was only seven but I decided to call it a night. I curled into a ball and fell asleep.