The Mask that I wear

Gerard way felt utterly disgusted with himself. He has eaten 2 pieces of pizza- yes TWO PIECES! Most people would have been happy at the sight of food. BUT Gerard was different: he was bulimic. Yes, bulimic!
He shoved 2 fingers down his throat until he felt his gag reflex. He hurled up his pizza along with bile and clear liquid.
His head was spinning from the induced sickness.

"Crap...." he said. "Can't think straight."

He layed on the bathroom floor for at least 20 minutes.

"Well, better get outta here before anyone finds out." He mumbled.

He used all of his strength to lift himself off of the floor, he got rid of the evidince and stumbled to his bunk.
He collapsed onto the warm inviting covers. He fell asleep instantly.

He dremt about Bert, his old boyfriend who had made his like this.


"You're too fat...

"I hate you...

"Go jump off a bridge...."

"Bert please Im just fine"

"No one will EVER love YOU!"

"You're worthless!!"

"Why were you even in this world?"

"You're life isn't even worth living...You fat pansy!"

"Just go kill your self!"

"You don't deserve a life!"

Gerard's eyes snapped open.

"NOOOOO!!!" Gerard screamed. "YOU"RE WRONG! WHY DO YOU DO THIS?!"

Frank tapped on his shoulder.

"Jesus Gerard, Are you ok?" he asked.

"I...had a dream...a....about him..." Gerard gasped as he wiped cold sweat off of his forehead.

"Its ok Gee, its all in the past." Frank said as he gave Gerard a quick hug.

"Thanks Frankie."

"No problem Gee."

is it a load of crap or shall we continue? You decide!sorry if its short.