The Greatest Love Of All.
So Cruel.
I tried to forget what happened with John, just because I didn’t want to ruin myself the rest of the day.
But it was hard, in the end. I saw him too much, just going around and talk with his band mates.
I looked at him loads of times, wondering why he acted like a total jerk with me. I was just upset.
I thought that he was probably just one of those kids who didn’t like anyone but their closest friends.
I was trying to reviewing them; my aim wasn’t sleep with them or what. I’m not one of those fan girls or groupies. I wanted to do what I like, and he just changed everything, making me feel even guilty for giving them the wrong impression. I hoped that at least Kennedy didn’t think the same.
I managed to go and talk to him about that. I didn’t want to be upset cause of some guy who was in his PMS. Kenny was talking to The Maine tour manager Moose. I waited for them to finish and then I asked him for some place where to talk. I was not that good at that, but I tried to be.
“Hey Kennedy, can I ask you something?”
“Sure”
“Do I look like someone who just wants to get attention or fame?”
He looked at me with a weird expression on his face. Like if I just said some kind of bullshit.
“Where is this coming from?”
“Some random guy told me. It’s not a big deal, I was just wondering”
“Don’t listen to him, he is probably a freaking asshole. Just ignore every bad word people say about you. Annie you seem a nice girl, that’s why I let you staying with us today. I sort of trust you yet”
I smiled wide and I blushed. Those words totally made my day. I thanked him and I wondered what would have happened if he knew that the ‘freaking asshole’ he was talking about was his band lead singer.
“We have the rest of the day off, we just have to stay at our tent merch or we can just hang out here in the parking lot, you know”
“Is that an offer?”
“Well, technically it would have been in a few seconds”
I laughed. Kenny was really nice to me, more than anyone that day. He was the only one who really kept attention to me and my work. Probably the rest of the band wasn’t that interested in some random girl’s dream or future. Or maybe they just wondered why I was hanging out with them, as I was a perfect stranger. Or maybe, they thought I was just looking for fame, as well as John did.
While we were going back to the tent I saw John laughing with some girls. They were everything I hated. And everything John pictured me to be. That’s why I decided to talk to him face to face, to clarify things. I didn’t want him to tell his band mates I was something I wasn’t, just because he thought that. I never liked preconceptions and people who followed their first impressions of someone. This may sound a contradiction, but in my opinion, I think that there are two kinds of people in the world: the ones who want you to think they are what they are not and the ones that just are what they are and they like to show it, no matter what it is wrong or right. The last ones, again, can be subdivided into other two categories: the ones who are evil and pretend to be nice and like to show they’re caring when they are just opportunists, and the ones who just wants you to leave them alone. John thought I was one of the first category.
“Kenny, just give me a moment, I need to work out something”
I saw John waving at those girls, looking at them and then turning back. We looked at each others for a few seconds, and then I walked straight at him.
“I need to tell you something”
He didn’t reply. He was waiting for me to talk.
“I don’t know why you are so arrogant with me, but for your information I am nothing like what you told me I am. I don’t need fame, I don’t need YOUR fame. I just want to do what I like, and you should be proud that there is someone who is interested in your band you know? I am doing my job and if you don’t need someone reviewing your music probably you are just too much big-headed to have a band. You think I just want to take advantage of your band, but this morning I didn’t even know who you were. I choose to spend my time listening to your music because you looked like some nice people to talk to, but probably I was wrong. And now you can come back to those freaking fan girls. I’m done here”
I walked back to the tent just to tell Kennedy I changed my mind. I was too angry. In all my speech John just didn’t say anything or even tried to. I didn’t want to review some idiot.
“Kennedy, I’m sorry but I’m done. There is no reason why I should do this”
“W-What? Why? What happened?”
“Tell your friend John. Bye”
I went away, walking fast. I just wanted to come back to my room, pretending that day never happened. But I am rarely lucky.
“Annie!? What are you doing here?!”
I turned myself, to see Elliott with a bunch of guys, waving at me.
“It is just my luck”
I muttered to myself.
That day was going to become worse and worse every minute.
But mostly, I was sure it would have been really, really, really, long.
But it was hard, in the end. I saw him too much, just going around and talk with his band mates.
I looked at him loads of times, wondering why he acted like a total jerk with me. I was just upset.
I thought that he was probably just one of those kids who didn’t like anyone but their closest friends.
I was trying to reviewing them; my aim wasn’t sleep with them or what. I’m not one of those fan girls or groupies. I wanted to do what I like, and he just changed everything, making me feel even guilty for giving them the wrong impression. I hoped that at least Kennedy didn’t think the same.
I managed to go and talk to him about that. I didn’t want to be upset cause of some guy who was in his PMS. Kenny was talking to The Maine tour manager Moose. I waited for them to finish and then I asked him for some place where to talk. I was not that good at that, but I tried to be.
“Hey Kennedy, can I ask you something?”
“Sure”
“Do I look like someone who just wants to get attention or fame?”
He looked at me with a weird expression on his face. Like if I just said some kind of bullshit.
“Where is this coming from?”
“Some random guy told me. It’s not a big deal, I was just wondering”
“Don’t listen to him, he is probably a freaking asshole. Just ignore every bad word people say about you. Annie you seem a nice girl, that’s why I let you staying with us today. I sort of trust you yet”
I smiled wide and I blushed. Those words totally made my day. I thanked him and I wondered what would have happened if he knew that the ‘freaking asshole’ he was talking about was his band lead singer.
“We have the rest of the day off, we just have to stay at our tent merch or we can just hang out here in the parking lot, you know”
“Is that an offer?”
“Well, technically it would have been in a few seconds”
I laughed. Kenny was really nice to me, more than anyone that day. He was the only one who really kept attention to me and my work. Probably the rest of the band wasn’t that interested in some random girl’s dream or future. Or maybe they just wondered why I was hanging out with them, as I was a perfect stranger. Or maybe, they thought I was just looking for fame, as well as John did.
While we were going back to the tent I saw John laughing with some girls. They were everything I hated. And everything John pictured me to be. That’s why I decided to talk to him face to face, to clarify things. I didn’t want him to tell his band mates I was something I wasn’t, just because he thought that. I never liked preconceptions and people who followed their first impressions of someone. This may sound a contradiction, but in my opinion, I think that there are two kinds of people in the world: the ones who want you to think they are what they are not and the ones that just are what they are and they like to show it, no matter what it is wrong or right. The last ones, again, can be subdivided into other two categories: the ones who are evil and pretend to be nice and like to show they’re caring when they are just opportunists, and the ones who just wants you to leave them alone. John thought I was one of the first category.
“Kenny, just give me a moment, I need to work out something”
I saw John waving at those girls, looking at them and then turning back. We looked at each others for a few seconds, and then I walked straight at him.
“I need to tell you something”
He didn’t reply. He was waiting for me to talk.
“I don’t know why you are so arrogant with me, but for your information I am nothing like what you told me I am. I don’t need fame, I don’t need YOUR fame. I just want to do what I like, and you should be proud that there is someone who is interested in your band you know? I am doing my job and if you don’t need someone reviewing your music probably you are just too much big-headed to have a band. You think I just want to take advantage of your band, but this morning I didn’t even know who you were. I choose to spend my time listening to your music because you looked like some nice people to talk to, but probably I was wrong. And now you can come back to those freaking fan girls. I’m done here”
I walked back to the tent just to tell Kennedy I changed my mind. I was too angry. In all my speech John just didn’t say anything or even tried to. I didn’t want to review some idiot.
“Kennedy, I’m sorry but I’m done. There is no reason why I should do this”
“W-What? Why? What happened?”
“Tell your friend John. Bye”
I went away, walking fast. I just wanted to come back to my room, pretending that day never happened. But I am rarely lucky.
“Annie!? What are you doing here?!”
I turned myself, to see Elliott with a bunch of guys, waving at me.
“It is just my luck”
I muttered to myself.
That day was going to become worse and worse every minute.
But mostly, I was sure it would have been really, really, really, long.
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I'm sorry if this took long. I was in the US (I saw the maine twice!) and then in Sicily :)Anyway, I hope you like this. It's not one of my fave I wrote but it had to be done.
So, now Annie is angry with John and she doesn't want to review The Maine anymore, but before coming back to UCLA her roommate Elliot spotted her.
What it is going to happen next?
Annie's Warped Tour is just at the beginning!
Let me know what you think!!!!!!!!Comments are always welcome :)
Danielle