Locked Away

"Ryan looks...great today!" Joanna whispered to me.

"Shutup, Jo, he may hear you," I giggled out.

The hottest boy was coming towards me! He looks like Ryan Ross with his sparkly chocolate eyes and perfect brown hair to match. He's not all into cliques and we are totally compatible! He's smart, cute, funny...

And he asked me out! He was coming to Jo and me to ask me out!

"Hey Lisa, can I talk to you?" he asked. "Alone?"

So then Joanna gets up and winks while Ryan leads me to the back corner of the room. Gah, I remember his exact words:

"So,um, I've been watching you for a while...and-and you're pretty hot and amazing, so I was wondering if you would like to go out sometime? Maybe Saturday?"

Diary, I am so excited!"

I couldn't stand it anymore. I slammed my old diary to the polished hardwood floor and began to breathe hard and quickly. When I wrote that, I was fifteen. Naive, young, and I thought I could rule the world.

God, how I wished I hadn't said yes.

Sure, the date was great. He took me to dinner and a movie and kissed me. But now it was different and would never be the same.