All I Wanted Was You

I stood by the door looking at where he stormed off to.
"What the fuck?"
I grabbed my bag and locked up.
no one just storms off on me without an explanation.
I made sure everything was locked up and ran to where I knew Rob would be.
when I got there the doorman just opened the door and didn't ask any questions.
I walked up to the elevator and pushed the button.
it wasn't going quick enough so I took the stairs.
fifth floor.
I marched up to his door and banged on it.
"Open up Robert Pattinson."
nothing.
"I know you are in there open this door right now!"
still nothing.
"I will make a scene Rob. I swear I will. I will let everyone know who is staying here!"
and the door quickly opened and he pulled me in before I could shout more.
"What the hell are you doing Belinda?"
"No I should ask you what the hell is the matter with you?!"
"What?"
"You just stormed off like that on me! So I ask again what is the matter with you?!"
I was infuriated with him.
and he just stood there looking down.
yes I am that fucking short moving on.
"I uh. I just. Look I have no idea what this is."
"What do you mean?"
"I just met you. I mean seriously just met you and I am acting like this. Like...."
"Like what Robert?"
he kept looking at me and then caressed my cheek.
"Like...like you are mine."
something inside me smiled.
no...gosh darn what the hell is wrong with me?
I started breathing heavy.
in understandable terms....I was freaking out.
and I of course...
"Well I am not yours....and I won't ever be yours."
ran away.
all I heard was.
"Wait Belinda wait!!"
I ran... anywhere. anywhere away from there.
breathe in and out, in and out.
run keep running.
don't stop.
'i love you Belinda Morgan..I always will.'
keep going.
'forever I wanna be with you forever.'
stop it.
'forever'
stop it.
'I promise I won't ever hurt you.'
STOP IT!!!
I fell to the ground and let the tears go.
I couldn't stop them.
"Why?"
I hit the ground.
"why? why? why? why?!!"
I started punching the ground.
I didn't care that my knuckles were starting to hurt or were green from punching the grass that I fell on.
I gave up and laid on the grass.
why?
how did I end up like this?
So incapable of letting a guy in...to let him in?
I cried and sat up and pulled my legs close to me.
I stared at the flowers and let the tears cloud my vision.
my phone rang.
I cleared my throat.
"Hey Danny."
"I just wanted to remind you that you are singing tonight and to pick a song."
"I know. I will. see you there."
"are you okay Morgan?"
"Yeah fine see you there."
"Well alright. Hey Cordy is coming get her a seat too."
"Will do. See ya."
I shut my phone and stayed there.
I let my mind wonder and stopped it dead when it went to Nathan.
focus. focus on what you are gonna sing tonight.
I wanted to go deep and sing what I feel.
Deep.
I know what I was gonna sing.
I got up wiped my tears and went to go get ready.
At the foot of my door I found a flower.
A white lily.
with a note.
"Let me get to know you.
-Rob."
I picked up the lily and note and went inside to get ready.
I made a quick call and headed out the door decided to walk to the club instead of riding with Danny. I needed a clear head.
I walked in the club just in time.
"Hey you are next go!"
I quickly told the band my song and they nodded and prepared.
I signaled and the guitar started to play

"
I am going away for a while
I'll be back don't try and follow me
I'll return as soon as possible
See I'm trying' to find my place
It might not be here where I feel safe
We all learn to make mistakes,

And run from them
From them
With no direction
We'll run from them
From them
With no conviction

I'm just one of those ghosts
Traveling endlessly
Don't need no roads
In fact they follow me
And we just go in circles

Now I'm told that this is life
Pain is just a simple compromise
So we can we get what we want out of it
Someone care to classify
Broken hearts and twisted minds
So i can find, someone to rely on,

And run to them
to them
Full speed ahead
Oh you are not
Useless
We are just

Misguided ghosts
Traveling endlessly
The ones we trusted the most
Pushed us far away
And there's no one road
We should not be the same
I'm just a ghost
And still they echo me
They echo me in circles."

I looked down and saw that the seat next to Cordelia was occupied.
He did saw what.
Dan and Cor where the first to find me.
"Oh my gosh that was so amazing Lin! How come I never heard that one before?"
"Its just something I had up my sleeve."
and then an accented voice spoke up
"It was beautiful."
I looked past my friends and stared at the guy who was holding lilies in his hands, and was dressed well.
"Morgan we are gonna go home. See you later?"
"Yeah Dan."
they left in quite a hurry.
Rob came up and handed me the flowers.
"Here. I just...I just wanna say I am sorry."
"For what?"
its not like you freaked out and ran away.
"For just causing you any distress, it was not my intention to ."
"No I am sorry. Its just...its me. I am not normal. I haven't been normal for a long time not after..."
"You don't have to say anything I just want to know you. If that's okay with you?"
"I.."
come on you can do it.
you know you want him close to you.
you told your self you would.
come on.
"Okay."
"Come with me."
"Where?"
"You'll see."
he held out his hand and I after some shaking on my part took it.
He lead me out the club and held my hand as he showed me where we were going.
I didn't want him to let go.
please don't let go.