All I Wanted Was You

I sat up and sat next to him on my bed.
"So what are we doing today?"
i shrugged
"I don't know. I have to day off. I wanted to stay in. You have been dragging me everywhere these days."
"Hahaha alright. How about you accompany to my hotel room so I can shower and get on a fresh pair of clothes and then we can come back here?"
"Oh okay. Can I get dressed first?"
"Ok."
he stayed on the bed.
"I meant can you step out?"'
"Oh duh sorry I will be waiting. Do you mind if I look around?"
"Sure."
he excused himself and walked out of the room.
I went to my closet and decided on something simple.
I didn't have a top on when ...
"Hey Belinda how old are those-"
he was standing in front of me looking at me....without a top on.
"Get out.."
"I am so sorry."
he turned around
"GET OUT!!!"
he quickly got out of the room.
I but my shirt out and slipped on my shoes.
I didn't even bother with my hair and walked out to see him.
he was standing by the window looking out.
"Have you ever heard of knocking before?"
"I am sorry I didn't mean to."
no one saw me like that...I never wanted anyone to see me like that after Nathan.
"I just...don't ever do that again got it?"
"I won't I promise."
I grabbed my bag.
"Shall we?"
I grabbed my keys and lead him out.
I locked the door ,put on my shades and folded my arms the whole way there.
"Belinda I am sorry i really didn't mean to."
I kept walking.
"Belinda please say something."
I looked at the ground.
those words were on repeat like a broken record.
'you fucking ugly girl I don't love you!!'
stop it.
'fucking ugly'
don't
'ugly'
please stop
'ugly'
I shook my head and stopped in my tracks.
good thing I was wearing shades.
"Whats wrong?"
"Just lead the way Rob."
we walked and he had in hands in his pockets.
Zac the doorman greeted us again
"Good morning Mr. Pattinson and ah Ms.Morgan lovely to see you again."
"Morning Zac."
"How do you know my name?"
He smiled.
"Mr. Pattinson doesn't stop talking about you."
"Oh. Morning then."
we ended up at his door.
"so you want me to wait here or what?"
"What are you crazy just wait for me inside. You can snoop around my things if it makes you feel better."
"Alright."
We went inside and he got some clothes and went into the bathroom.
I looked around and decided why snoop?
It would just make me feel weird looking through his stuff.
I just sat on his bed and pulled out my notebook and browsed through it to decided on what song to do for tomorrow's set.
and stumbled upon on I haven't sang in such a long time.
one I wrote for Cordy.
It helped her through a lot and brought her closer to Danny and me.
and I had my song.
I went back to my unfinished song.
All I could squeeze out of myself was
"Well, its a shame I'm a dream."
I stuffed my notebook back in my bag and threw it on the floor and got up to the see the huge window and the view it held.
"Why am I here? How did I let myself get here?"
I watched as people on the sidewalk passed and cars drove by.
and then the phone rang.
"Uh Rob?"
he shouted from the shower
"Yeah?"
"Your phone is ringing!"
"Could you pick it up its just probably the manager to check in and see if I need anything."
"Oh alright."
I picked up the ringing receiver
"Ummm Mr. Pattinson's room."
"Oh hello this is Mr. Clarkson calling to inform Mr. Pattinson that somehow fans have found out he is staying here and to advise him to use the back door of the hotel."
"I will let him know thank you."
"Please let him know to call me if he needs anything else."
"I will inform him have a good day."
"You too as well ma'am."
I hung up and looked around and spotted a book, the book he bought from me the other day.
I opened it to the book mark he had it on.
and read where he underlined the passage.
"I shall take the heart," returned the Tin Woodman; "for brains do not make one happy, and happiness is the best thing in the world."
I smiled and kept reading.
Rob came out of the bathroom fully dressed in new clothes and towel drying his hair.
"Was it the manager?"
"yeah he said to use the back door of the hotel because your fans are out in front."
"Oh shit really?"
he ran to the window and looked down
"Fuck. going incognito isn't really a luxury I have anymore."
"must be hard."
"Sometimes. Don't get me wrong i love my fans but I just need some me time."
"I understand."
"Let me just grab my things and throw on my shoes and we will head out."
"ok."
I kept my eyes on the book and he rushed around to get his things.
"You sure have almost devoured this."
"Couldn't put it down. Its one of my favorites."
"Mine too."
he smiled and stood up.
"Come on we have to get going before they find my room."
I out his book back and followed him out.
we used the stairs and went out the back but there were some girls waiting there.
"OH MY GOSH THERE HE IS!!!!"
"I LOVE YOU ROB!!!"
"MARRY ME!!!'
next thing I knew we were swarmed by girls.
they pushed me aside and crowded him
"Rob?! Rob!!"
but he could barely hear me through all the screams.
and finally one pushed me to the ground to get closer to him
I couldn't take it I crawled my way out and started heading home.
I doubt he would notice.
and soon enough the mob grew, and a stampede starting running in his direction and I took off.
I ran until I was sure I couldn't hear their shrieking anymore.
I quickly open my loft door and shut it.
"Where have you been?"
"Oh shit! Dan don't fucking scare me like that."
"Didn't answer my question."
"I was out. and then I came running back."
"Why?"
"crazy screaming girls."
"Ah so they found him."
"yeah nut cases knocked me down again. I just ran."
"You left him there?"
"yeah too much for me."
"Oh you are so mean Morgan."
"How am I mean?"
"You left him there at the mercy of crazy fan girls."
and then I thought about it.
fuck...I am mean.
"Fuck...now I feel life shit."
"You better anyway the reason I let my self in was for some coffee but you don't have any, and that the club called they want another show tonight."
"alright now shoo!!"
"Yes mean lady."
he let himself out.
I thought about what I did
"Fuck I am mean."