All I Wanted Was You

Jared was a shadow as I walked to the stage to where he was.
I was going to do it. I was going to say it and mean it.
“Hey gorgeous how was it?”
“That was amazing.”
“The shrieking didn’t bother you?”
“What shrieking?”
“You didn’t hear the girls?”
“I must have blocked them out.”
“Amazing. Now come one before…”
“OH MY GOSH!! PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR AUTOGRAPH!!”
“That happens.”
“haha its alright I am going to go wait for you by the exit.”
“I will make it quick alright?”
“Okay.”
Just practice saying it.
Even if you seem odd for talking to yourself.
“I love you.”
Again.
“I am in love with you Rob.”
Better
“love you.”
Oh gosh that was horrible.
“I never thought. I really didn’t think I could feel like this again.”
There we go almost there.
“I love you-“
And then I heard it. That voice. That dark, emotionless, cold voice.
“Well well well look what we have here.”
My hand automatically balled up into a fist and I turned around to find him in front of me after all these years.
“What the hell are you doing here?”
“I was just passing by, I was enjoying the show.”
I felt it.
“Get away from me.”
“Oh baby is that anyway to treat me?”
“I want you to get away from me before..”
“Oh before what? You claw me to death? You are as helpless as a baby.”
“I am warning you.”
It was bubbling up inside me.
It was finally rising in me.
“Nathan get away from me.”
“Or what?”
“You don’t want to find out.”
Those cold brown eyes staring me down, the dark hair slicked back.
I wanted so much to forget that face that brought me so much misery but now…now I want to destroy it.
“I will be seeing you around.”
“I highly doubt that.”
I heard his footsteps get further and further away.
Hold it together.
For Rob do it for him.
Hold it together.
Breathe.
“Hey gorgeous.”
“Hi.”
“Are you okay? It looks like you saw a ghost.”
“No I am fine can we go?”
“Yes, come on we have a plane to catch in morning.”
We walked out of the club and I was angry.
For the first time since it happened I was angry.
And then another question came up.
Why is he here?
Why did I see him now?
I was better off without knowing he was still breathing.
I was starting to get better.
And now all I can think about it wanting to make him feel all the pain he caused me.