All I Wanted Was You

I never wanted to be a lead singer.
I just wanted to be the guitar player, the rhythm guitarist.
maybe also sang back up vocals.. but here I am playing rhythm guitar and singing the songs the guys helped me write and some they wrote.
here I am, and I have my best friend as the drummer, and making new friends, and I feel great.

"I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening."

I could feel all the sweat on my forehead and all the other guys starting to mellow out.
"Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?"

I want this for Danny, because he has done so much for me.

"This heart, it beats, beats for only you"

This song is for Rob, this song is for Cordy from Danny, this song is about Heart, love, and so much more.

"My heart is your's"

the final note played and we looked up at each other.
"Thank you and goodnight."
we walked off the stage and all the guys decided to..
"OH MAN THANK YOU SO MUCH BELINDA!!! GROUP HUG!!!!"
"Oh man sweat this is so unclean!!"
"oh you know you kind of like us too."
"I do Jack now off...I am going to smell like dude."
"Alright alright. How do you come up with these lyrics?"
"Life, memories, feelings, books, stories, what ever inspires me."
"Is Robbie boy one of them?"
"Yeah he is, he is like a key that is slowly unlocking everything in here."
i pointed to my heart.
"He sounds awesome when are we going to meet him?"
"When he comes back to town and tells me where he is staying while he is filming."
"Cool cool."
"Hey I have to jet people talking isnt really my thing let me know what the label people say."
"Sure, I think Dan will stop by and tell you."
"See ya later Jacky boy."
I grabbed my guitar case and messenger bag and went on my way. I didn't live far from the showcase venue so it was a nice walk.
my phone beeped.
"my love I know you did great. I love you. Call me when you get home. R. "
I smiled and thought of the song I couldn't complete.
Its like I am still blocked but I know they will come to me, its almost complete I need one more piece.
I got the keys to my place and I was like I was on cloud 9.
I had a great show, I am making new friends, I have a wonderful boyfriend. I don't think anything can ruin it.
"Hello Belinda."
scratch that.
I turned around to face the asshole of my past.
"Goodbye Nathan."
I would have successfully slammed my door in his face but his foot got in the way.
"Wait please hear me out!"
"Fuck off."
"No please please hear me out."
"Go away!"
"No listen to me please! please!"
"GO AWAY!!!"
nice to know stomping a person's foot still works.
I managed to shut the door and lock it. But it didn't stop him from knocking on my door like crazy.
"You keep banging on that door asshole I am not opening it."
tonight would have been perfect....it my past would just leave me the fuck alone.