All I Wanted Was You

Time is a funny little thing.
Whenever you are having a great time it just seems to pass by.
But when you are having a bad day and nothing really seems to be going your way it seems to just almost run twenty times slower than usual.

For me right now I feel like if I blinked I would miss something important.

The band is starting to take shape,
Rob is half way through filming,
Cordy is starting to show more everyday,
and I am finally starting to feel more like myself.

Everything is just going and going.
But I kind of don't want it to stop,
and at the same time I could use a breather.

I was currently sitting in the rose garden just enjoying the nice day.
And thinking how different my life was 5 months ago.
I was a ghost walking around, my best friends weren't parents yet, I wasn't writing, and Rob wasn't in my life.

But now we seem to be different people.
And I am happier, and I am in a band and right now....my phone is buzzing.

I smiled at the name that flashed across my screen.

“Hello.”
“God I love the sound of your voice.”
“That kind of sounded weird.”
“No it didn't!”
“Yes it did!”
“Well if you say so love, how are you?”
“I am...swamped I guess the right word would be.”
“The band keeping you busy?”
“Yeah we are running around trying to write solid songs for the showcase, and then I have Cordy's never ending list of baby stuff. My gosh she is like a possessed mom and the kid isn't even out yet!”

he chuckled

“You know you are gonna be the exact same way whenever you become a mom.”
“oh no! That's why I am gonna have you around to pull me back to reality.”
we both laughed and then there was a silence.

I felt it and he said it.

“I miss you so much Belinda, its insane.”

I pulled my knees closer to me.

“I miss you too. I miss having you hold me whenever I needed it. I miss having you sleep next to me at night.”
“Gosh I think I miss that most of all, I really can't sleep without you next to me.”
“Me neither. How much longer?”
“Just a few more weeks and then maybe some photography for the posters and stuff like that. I want to be home already.”
“Me too. I guess its a good thing I keep busy.”
“And I wish I wasn't so busy.”
“You would be miserable if you couldn't act.”
“No I don't think so love.”
“Oh really?”
“Yes really and you know why?”
“No clue.”
“Because if this all went away I would still have you.”
I smiled big, even through a phone this man had a way with words.

“Oh shit Belinda I have to, re shooting something. I love you and will be home soon.”
“I love you too, hurry back.”
“You know I will bye.”
“Bye.”

This man has changed me for the better, and I don't care, I found love...and I am going to hold on to it.

“Morgan! Morgan come on! With have to finish writing those songs!.”

I snapped out of my daydream and back into reality.

“Alright be there in a second!”

time to get back to work.