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I Can Use Some Guiding Light
You'll Find Your Own Way
(January 1, 2010)
“Brian...you have to hear this shit,” Johnny told me as I walked into Matt's house.
Everyone sat at the table, a CD player playing a familiar song. I recognized the voice, and hearing it was a huge kick in the chest. Tears streamed down everyone's faces, just like they were the last time I saw them.
Zack said, as I took a seat beside him, “Remember the last song Jimmy wrote?”
“Yeah...I do. He called it...um...oh, shit,” I replied, in shock. It hit me. He called it, “Death.”
Matt nodded, more tears falling from his eyes. “Listen to these damn lyrics.”
He started the song again, and I could hear Jimmy's voice sing the words:
Left this life to set me free. Took a piece of you inside of me. All this hurt can finally fade. Promise me you'll never feel afraid.
My jaw dropped, and tears filled my eyes for the first time since the 28th. “He...he couldn't have known.”
“I...I know...but...but what if...fuck!” Johnny ended with a yell, then immediately bawling into his hands afterward.
I know you'll find your own way when I'm not with you.
No...you have to be kidding me. This is crazy. It doesn't make sense. I sobbed into my hands, letting out all of anguish that I had kept I bottled up over the past three days. How could he have written these lyrics three days before he left us? How? I felt Zack place a comforting hand on my shoulder, and I could tell he was crying just as hard as I was.
“It's...it's like he was saying good-bye to us,” I said, shaking my head.
Zack stated, “I know...it's...it's really eerie.”
“This just doesn't make sense...I hate it. I fucking hate it,” I cried.
Johnny sighed, “We...we all do...we all do.”
I completely broke down, “I want him back, dammit!” That made everyone else break down as well.
How long is this pain gonna last?
Those lyrics were playing over and over in my head.
I know you'll find your own way when I'm not with you.
Only one thought arose in my head, Jimmy, I don't think we will.
“Brian...you have to hear this shit,” Johnny told me as I walked into Matt's house.
Everyone sat at the table, a CD player playing a familiar song. I recognized the voice, and hearing it was a huge kick in the chest. Tears streamed down everyone's faces, just like they were the last time I saw them.
Zack said, as I took a seat beside him, “Remember the last song Jimmy wrote?”
“Yeah...I do. He called it...um...oh, shit,” I replied, in shock. It hit me. He called it, “Death.”
Matt nodded, more tears falling from his eyes. “Listen to these damn lyrics.”
He started the song again, and I could hear Jimmy's voice sing the words:
Left this life to set me free. Took a piece of you inside of me. All this hurt can finally fade. Promise me you'll never feel afraid.
My jaw dropped, and tears filled my eyes for the first time since the 28th. “He...he couldn't have known.”
“I...I know...but...but what if...fuck!” Johnny ended with a yell, then immediately bawling into his hands afterward.
I know you'll find your own way when I'm not with you.
No...you have to be kidding me. This is crazy. It doesn't make sense. I sobbed into my hands, letting out all of anguish that I had kept I bottled up over the past three days. How could he have written these lyrics three days before he left us? How? I felt Zack place a comforting hand on my shoulder, and I could tell he was crying just as hard as I was.
“It's...it's like he was saying good-bye to us,” I said, shaking my head.
Zack stated, “I know...it's...it's really eerie.”
“This just doesn't make sense...I hate it. I fucking hate it,” I cried.
Johnny sighed, “We...we all do...we all do.”
I completely broke down, “I want him back, dammit!” That made everyone else break down as well.
How long is this pain gonna last?
Those lyrics were playing over and over in my head.
I know you'll find your own way when I'm not with you.
Only one thought arose in my head, Jimmy, I don't think we will.