Something Keeps Pulling Me Back

I feel my phone vibrate in my back pocket.
I pull it out to see “JoelyPoley” printed across my screen.
I answer and wait for him to talk
“Hey Babe!!” He basically screams into the phone.
Gerard looks at me confused.
I mouth a ‘sorry’ to him and indicate I’ll just be a minute.
“What’s up?” I ask him.
“Nothing, just checking in on my favorite person!” He exclaims.
“Aw babe, your cuteness makes me sick.”
We both laugh into our phones.
“Well… how’s it going? Asshole being an asshole yet? “
My eyes widen, Gerard would’ve heard that.
I whisper into the phone telling Joel that Gerard’s right in front of me.
“Who cares?” Joel laughs.
I laugh along.
“Well babe I’ll let you go have fun, I love you!” He says sarcastically about the ‘fun’ part.
“Love you too.” I reply and place my phone back in my pocket.
“Ooo- I love you too!” Bob mocks me.
“Shut up!” I retort and attempt to slap him, him laughing as I fail.
“Who was that?” Gerard inquires.
“Joel!” I reply smiling.
“Oh, him. I hate that kid.” He says trying to hurt me.
“That’s nice to know Gerard.” I say walking off to pick up a guitar.

*** A Few Moments Later***

Gerard and I are actually sitting here talking to each other, no arguments just conversation.
I have experienced this for a while, it’s kinda’…nice.
“Is my behavior that bad Frank?” Gerard asks sincerely.
I’m shocked, as per usual our conversation ends up with ‘us’ as the topic.
I sigh.
“I loved you Gerard- and you’ve made it more than hard for me and your behavior has been beyond difficult; but I guess you already knew that… Because that was kinda’ what you were aiming to happen wasn’t it?”
Tears begin building up in his eyes.
“But Frank, I love you.” He says as he grabs on to my hand.