"Revive Me With Just One Touch..."

4:55

Am or pm?Who could be sure in a dark room, sealed away from all humanity and hint of outdoors?

4:56

The clock was just here to tease me.

Whoever said time was of the escense obviously never had a chat with someone who lacked it.
Truly,the worst part had been having Tony look into my eyes and know I was done.
I knew what was destined to happen.He still lived with the hope that I'd be wrong.
My biggest regret was letting him start the car.

"Did you really think I'd let you go off on your own?"

Could it have been yesterday that I had begged for his life and endured all possible torture just so he would be set free.

"Kill me,do what you want.Just please,please let him go!"

The semi dry blood caked on my wrists screamed 'Yes'.
I had burns and bruises running up my arms,from lit cigarettes pressed to my skin until only a cigarette bud remained.

Tears had leaked from my sorrow filled eyes as I forced myself in front of him.I couldn't let him end when his life was only just beggining.

I could still hear Tony's voice erupting from the darkness.Our last conversation.

"Think we're ever getting out?".

I was almost amused,almost."Oh you're getting out,one way or another".

"Why do you do that?".

"Do what?".

He breathed a sigh,"Act like I'm the only one who's making it out alive.Do you want to die Velair?".

The truth was my salvation."A life for a life".

"What?".

"You stuck with me through every traumatizing experience I've ever had.Most people would run and forget about me but you,you gave up your life for me.I mean look where you are now!".

I paused only to catch my breath,"You're going to get out of here alive Tony.Even if it kills me".

He grunted as he put all his weight on his good leg and towered over me.One hand cupping the side on my face while the other held onto the chair I sat on for support.

"I hope you know..",he started.

I pressed my fingers to his lips,"You're going to make it out alive".

He pushed my hand away.
"I hope you know,I only live when I'm near you".

Those words were seared forever into my memory.

He had been pulled out of the room we were captives in.
My brother had given me a pitiful look,I almost hadn't seen it when he quickly recovered and shot me a deathglare.

"You're going to regret this the minute he's gone..",Jasper grumbled under his breath.

I shifted my eyes to the boy in the corner.Giving up my life didn't seem like enough.

"You're wrong.."

Jasper grabbed the injured boy and just about carried him out of the room.

They stopped at the door,Jasper shot me a smile."Stubborn girl".

Yes,that was exactly what I was.
A girl too stubborn to care whether she lived or died as long as it meant not being afraid anymore.

"Velair..",she called.

I stated at the empty corner,at the blood smeared over the wood and splattered across the walls.Every inch of the room smelling of the crimson liquid.

"Velair?".My name never sounded so disgusting.

"Look at me,you ungrateful little-".

I brought my eyes over to look right through her,I swore I saw her shiver a bit.

She wasn't frozen for long,"You're going to die".

The sickening smile she wore quickly wiped off,the next time I opened my mouth.

"I'm not afraid.."

Tony

She mended my leg but broke my heart.She ended her life because she wanted mine's to begin.Little did she know,I couldn't live without her.I wondered constantly about how I'd made it by before her.

"You love her?My sister?".

I looked to my side at Jasper,his knuckles turning white as he tightly gripped the steering wheel.

"Answer me!",he yelled.

"Yes".

His fingers loosened around the wheel,"Velair.She always had trouble letting people into her heart,even before mom.Always kept to herself unless she knew she could trust the person.Earning her trust was like putting yourself in a range of gunfire...and surviving".

"Why are-".

He cut me off,"I only wanted to save her."

Confusion washed over me.

"You tried to kill her".

His foot slammed on the breaks,my head almost hit the windshield.
My mouth was about to open and yell out some random profanity but I was stopped short when I saw him looking back at me.
Tears were welling up in his eyes,his lips were trembling,his hands shaking.He looked so much like Joey.

"I wasn't lying when I told her I loved her!I did everything I could!I pushed her out the window and I told her to run,I wasn't planning on selling her out!",he was screaming at this point.

"Then why did you?".

He breathed out a sigh."Mom was going crazy,I knew before anyone else.Some days because I would catch her talking to herself.Other days because I would find her curled into a ball mumbling 'Velair','Velair will be the death of me'.She never really liked her because everywhere they went people fell in love with Velair.One day,I remember it perfectly.We all went dress shopping for Velair because we were going to our dad's concert to surprise him.She was so happy as she held my moms hand,she looked ready to burst with joy".

Jasper looked past me and out the window,"We spent at least an hour there and when we finally got to the counter the lady behind it couldn't keep her eyes off of Velair.Hell,who could? Anyway she looked straight at my mom and told her 'Must be great to have a little girl so full of life,she looks like an angel'.Mom never looked so mad,she paid for the clothes and dragged us into the car.She refused to touch Velair after that and only did so when she absolutely had to".

"Why would she-"

Again,he cut me off."Two days before she attacked Velair,I heard her talking to herself again.She was pacing the room whispering 'I'll empty her' and 'She'll be an angel for sure'.I didn't know it then but I wasnt the only one who'd remembered those lady's words."

I waited for him to continue and when he didn't I took the opportunity to ask."When'd you figure it out?".

"When me and my dad got to the house.He heard muffled screaming and some stuff being thrown so he told me to stay where I was.There was a loud scream and then mom ran out towards me and out the door.I found Velair curled into our dads chest singing the lullaby he had written for her.There was blood everywhere."

His eyes glazed over and for once I knew it wasn't drugs to blame.It was the tears he refused to let run as he remembered his past.

"It's why you made her leave?".

Jasper nodded,"It was her life or mine."

"She told me the same thing".

His lips curled into a smallbarely noticeable smile,"You got to her pretty deep,I hope she finally understands why I let her go".

"Jasper",I waited for him to look at me,"What about the drugs?".

He leaned over and popped open the glove compartment,"Old bitch has been injecting me with water.I stole all the heroine viles when she was high off her mind,I emptied them and stashed the empty glass here.I fill it up with water,but I leave enough of the drug so she doesn't find out".

I shot him a skeptic look,"Water?".

He shrugged,"Has about the same density as heroine,plus clear and clear."

"What about when you kissed Velair?And when you hurt our friends?".

"I'll never be able to say I'm sorry enough.Sometimes I don't get to the viles soon enough and she has a stash,sometimes I'm high as a kite while other times I only have the appearance.Like now".

He was right.His eyes were glossy,puffy and red,his skin was clammy and paler than usual.He had beads of sweat on his forehead but I knew he was telling the truth because besides the obvious appearance he actually seemed fine.

"I didn't mean to hurt Mike you know.The drug enhaces my emotions,usually anger.Anger at myself,anger at my mother,and anger towards this whole fucked up situation".

He was grinding his teeth.It was loud enough to hurt my ears.
The car started moving again.

"I'm going to make things right again.My sister is going to make it out of there alive,even if it kills me!".

I saw Velair in the determination in his blue eyes,heard her in the strong set tone of his voice.He was her brother and he loved her with all his heart.
Velair knew why Jasper had done what he had done,now she was using it to help save me.

"We're all going to make it out".