Strength of the World

We're finally home. The plane ride was nothing special, most of us slept. All except me of course. I couldn't manage to keep my eyes closed. I still had that feeling in my stomach like something was going to go terribly wrong while Brian was away. I tried to keep it out of my head when Brian was around, I didn't want him knowing something was wrong with me. That would worry him while he was gone, and I don't want him to be paranoid. The girls were having their time with their loves, of course. Most of the time was spent crying and holding each other. Sure, it's only a month or so, but that's a long time for their first time away.
"I'm only going to be gone for about a month, and I'll call you everynight, especially on our birthday and the day I leave." Brian whispered as I gripped onto him tightly. He kissed my forehead and took hold of my wrists, making me release him. He gave me a sincere smile, and without a word, picked up his bags and walked out the door to put them in the van. The other boys did the same. Everyone was in the process of saying their good-byes. Me on the other hand, I became nearly emotionless. All of a sudden, I stopped crying. Like, none of this was happening. Brian walked up to me and wrapped his arms around me, staring me in the face. A tear trickled down his face.
"Don't cry baby." I whispered, hardly able to look at him.
"How can't I? I'm going to be gone, and it's hard for me to sleep without you. I can't...leave." He stated looking down. I lifted his head up by his chin.
"Look at me Brian." He slowly moved his gaze upon mine. "Don't you start giving up now, right as you reach the beginning of something I know you've wanted. Do not let me stop you. I trust you, and I love you with everything I am. There's no way I'm letting you or anyone else walk out on this oppertunity, or get in the way. I'm not a selfish person Brian, I'm just going to miss you...a lot."
"I know, I love you with everything too. That's why I can't find the right words to thank you for letting me have this chance. I know the other guys will agree with me when I say that we love all you girls, you are in fact the world to us." He gripped my waist tightly while I kissed his tear away.
"No tears baby, it's going to be just fine."
"I don't know, I don't want to leave you hear alone."
"I'm not alone Brian," I laughed. "The girls are hear with me." He sighed.
"We gotta head out guys. We need to meet up with the crew guys and whatnot in about an hour or two." Jimmy informed. Brian pulled me into his body slowly, like he was ignoring my brother. He placed his gentle hands on my cheeks and kissed me with love. Brian's never been THIS passionate or slow about this. He almost seemed nervous to me.
"I'm going to call you tonight, and tell you how much I miss you. Especially before I go to bed. That's going to be the hardest for me." He said, the last part nearly to a whisper.
"I know Brian, but you'll have fun. Look at the pack of wild animals you get all to yourself!" I joked to lighten the mood a tad. He just smiled weakly. "Come on now babe, I'll be fine. The girls and I will take care of each other, no doubt." He nodded.
"I know. I love you Katie." He whispered.
"I love you too." With that said, we kissed one last time until he returned home. Jimmy was the last to give me a hug after Zacky and the rest of the boys saying their goodbyes.
"I love you sis, don't do anything I wouldn't do." He winked while I smirked. The other girls got their hugs and such too, and before we knew it, the boys were out of the driveway, on their way to live a dream. The girls and I quietly sobbed, when I came up with a suggestion as I sniffled my nose.
"Alright girls, this is our time too. No need to moap. We;ll all miss our loves, but we need girl time. SO! I thought we could all go shopping, then come home and chow down on some ice cream as we watch chick flicks and romance movies to make us cry!" I said the last part acting it out really overdramatically. The girls slightly laughed. "There we go, we need to have our time alone too. Those boys will be just fine. We all know they'll be true to us. Now don't we?" They all nodded with smiles.
"She's right. We need our time, the boys need theirs. It'll only be a month, the more we make of it, the quicker it goes." Nic said.
"Yeah, then when they come home we'll wish they were gone for JUST a few more days we're having so much fun." Jen said. We all laughed.
"Well, maybe half of that was alright. We have to get started at this very moment!" Bridgette said cheerfully.
"That's a way to stay positive, smile and cheer. We need to shop!" Kameron said. Quickly, which was surprising, we all got dressed decent and gathered our money and whatnot. The girls and I all squeezed into my car and we cranked up the stereo. Singing along to Blink 182 was bliss. The windows were rolled down and we had our sunglasses on, singing loudly because we just didn't care. Finally, we parked my car in the parking lot of the mall and stepped outside. Almost as if we knew our thoughts, all of us took a deep breath and let it out with a sigh.
"It's good to be home." Kameron joked as the rest of us laugh.
"You got that right!" We all yelled on cue. Linking our arms together, we walked into the mall like sisters. This is what I love about these guys, we all miss the boys...but we still know how to have fun without it getting to us too much.
"Alright girls, my first stop is ALWAYS Hot Topic." Jen nodded in agreement.
"That's our store." She added. The other girls laughed and told Jen and I they'd either be in Spencer Gifts, or Pac Sun.
"That's awesome, that's usually where Jen and I go after Hot Topic. We'll communicate with no other than our cell phones, and I do believe we need to make an awesome stop and Victoria's secret." I winked.
"Oh that's right! And we never walk into that store without all of us being together." Bridgette explained.
"Definately, that way if a guy comes up to us and freaks on us, we can all get our share of fun." Nic stated laughing. We just rolled our eyes and sighed with smiles on our faces.
"Shall we?" I asked to no one girl in particular.
"We shall." They chimed in. Heading to our favorite stores, we all needed to admit we took a few double takes on some of the guys. Jen and I aimed more at the 'emo' boys of the mall, many of which we saw at Hot Topic. But NO ONE compared to Matt and Brian, I'm sure the other girls would say the same about their lovers. It's not wrong to think some passer-by is hot, it's not like we're going to stalk them and say 'I want to have your babies!'. Jen and I laughed, we had weird inside jokes. It was simple, we'd look at a hot guy, then go back to what we were doing after saying he was in fact hot. Of course, each guy we said was hot had some quality of Matt or Brian that we just couldn't help but notice. My cell all of a sudden went off.
"What the fuck?" Jen laughed. "They're calling us ALREADY!?" I shook my head.
"It wasn't one of the girls, it was Brian. He texted me." I smiled. Jen's phone then went off. She looked down to her pocket, then up to me.
"Looks like my man might have decided to do the same." She smiled slyly. We took out our cells and read our messages. Mine was short, but meaningful.
'Baby, I know this is a quick text already, but the guys and I miss you sooo much. I know you're probably out shopping or whatnot, but I wanted to tell you I love you and we're already safely with the crew of the tour. I love you, and I'll call tonight around bed time.' Brian was so cute. He knows me well, like he knew I was shopping. But hey, it is a stress reliever. Jen laughed a little.
"Matt's so adorable." I nodded in agreement, knowing Brian was just the same. This time, my cell phone actually rang. I picked it up and I SWEAR, I lost about half of me hearing in my left ear.
"THE GUYS JUST TEXTED US!" All the girls screechd.
"OW! Please, do yell louder." I said.
"We're sorry, we were just so excited!" Bridgettes screeched happily. I'm telling you, I could hear their hearts racing through my fucking phone. I laughed.
"Yeah, they texted Jen and I too."
"Sweet, we just wanted to tell you that." Nic said cheerfully as Kameron snickered in the background. I said my goodbyes to them while Jen laughed behind me.
"You know what Jen, you need to shut up." I smiled, she knows I'm joking. The guys behind us just glared at us evilly. They obviously couldn't stand our weird ways.
"What the fuck, take a picture for fuck's sake. It does last longer." I spat at one of them.
"Shut the hell up, you all squeal like fucking pigs." Ooo that did it. This may be my favorite store, and I hate to disrespect it and the workers, but I need to make a mess. Jen held me back by the arms, but what he said was uncalled for and she knew it. Releasing me wasn't such a good idea. I nearly pounced on this guy with all my fury raging through my body. I threw punches every which way while Jen and the other guy spat remarks at each other. Eventually, she got fed up. See, Jen and I have REALLY bad tempers, and I happen to be really...really impatient. The guys are gone for an hour, and we're already making trouble. Every which way we hit the guys in their jaws as they tried to hold up their arms in defense. What pussies. Once we figured they had enough, which was also when the workers decided to pull us off of the poor fuckers, we paid for our loads of shit and left, not a scratch to our name.
"Poison cock suckers." I stated as we walked out of the store. Jen laughed, knowing that came from CKY4.
"Yeah! You don't fucking know GG Allin." She yelled, everyone walking through the mall staring. But, did we care? Nope. We were always weird like this. Making scences and riots wherever we went.
"Hey chicas!" I laughed as we ran into the girls.
"You two are awfully cheery, who the hell did you beat up this time? And how the hell did it happen so soon without us watching?" Kameron asked. All us girls knew each other like books. The guys couldn't even understand, and often tried to compete by gaining a close relationship between each other. But the boys knew they couldn't bond, nor cope with each other like that.
"Eh, just two fucktards that don't know who the fuck they were dealing with." I said putting my reciept and change in my purse. After we got done laughing, we walked to Victoria's Secret.
"This should be fun girls." Jen said with a sly look to her face.
"Ooooh yeah!" I stated, Jen laughing at me 'sex' remark. Arguing was always a part of shopping when it came to us. We either hated what one of us picked out, or we loved it. And we were always dead honest. If it got too out of hand, we'd just shut the fuck up and throw whatever it was in our hands onto the floor. That always resulted in a HUGE mess. Agreeing on at least two 'outfits' each, we paid for our new belongings and had to make one more stop. Orange Julius. It was a sort of tradition to us chicas. We could never leave the mall without a shake or smoothy, it would feel incomplete otherwise. I usually got a banana/blackberry shake. The others got what they preferred. Heading off to the car was the easiest part, however, there was a challenge. With five girls in the same car, it was hard to fit in our bags. How would this work? My trunk was never that big. I manages to shove at least half of our bags in the trunk, while the rest just had to be shoved someplace else in the backseat. Once again, the ride home was spent singing loudly to Blink 182, until of course it came to their song 'Miss You'. That just made us cry, none of us held back our tears. We kept singing though, only it sounded more rickety and raspy, due to our voices and stuffed up noses. I'm sure afterwards we're just going to laugh at this, but for now, the only thing on our minds were the boys. Each of us missed everyone of them. There was just something that made life harder without them. We pulled into the driveway and walked into our empty house. We couldn't help but drop our bags. I think it finally hit us that they really weren't going to be home for a month.
"I'm gonna go take a nap girls, it's been a long day." I said.
"Yeah, I think the rest of us will too. We'll get up later, eat, then cry to movies as we eat ice cream." Bridgette said.
"I'm up for that." Nic added with a yawn. We all nodded to each other, took our bags to our rooms, and took our naps. I literally just threw myslef on my bed, but I layed on Brian's side. Breathing in the scent of his pillow, I feared it would lose the smell of his awesome AXE spray. I loved it, and I missed him more than ever now. I realized, he's not going to be the only one having a hard time getting to sleep. I closed my eyes tightly and held Brian's pillow close to my chest. All I could think was awaiting Brian's call and having fun with the girls later. I wriggled a little more to get comfortable with 'Miss You' replaying through my head.
"I love you Brian." I mumbled to myself.