Save Me From Myself

Stop!. I stopped. Go to your room it ordered. I went to my room. Shut the door. I shut the door. Following like a lost puppies. I always did what it said. Always. I never disobey a command. Never. That would be a problem, I'm not allowed to make problems. That's not allowed. If I make mistake I must be punished. Always.

I smile that smile twisted crooked smile. Pick up the blade, Eden. It's what your best at. Hurt yourself. Just do it. No one wants you here. Why can't you actually be worth something. Why can't you be somebody for once in your life. Why are you always a disappointment. Why.. The voice says it calmly. Mocking me, taunting me, Hurting me.

I'm suddenly very angry. I search for my blade. Suddenly I find it, in my backpack. I pull up my pant leg. I slash deep angry cuts into my upper thigh. I stop for a moment to see if it'll bleed. It does. Do you feel better now. The voice says. No, I reply bitterly. It wasn't enough. It's never enough.

I pull out a pair of scissors in my crafts drawer. I takes it's pointy edge and stab the cuts. Making them deeper. there's lots of blood now. Still it's not enough. I get up and limp to the medicine cabinet in the bathroom careful not to spill any blood on the floor. I find what I'm looking for:Cotton balls, and rubbing alcohol. I poor it onto the cuts.

It stings really bad. Its hurts so bad. I scream. I cry. I sob. I bite my lip. After a while it minimizes into a big throbbing pain. For once, It's finally enough.I'm still bleeding a little though, but not as bad anymore. I wipe the tears off my face.

I realize my bedroom floor is covered in blood. I have to pick this up before my parents get back. I look at the clock. I have an 1 hour and two minutes before their movie ends. Then it'll take them at least 10 minutes to get out the parking lot. Then 20 minutes before they get her with no traffic. SO. I have an hour and thirty-two minutes before they get home.I have plenty of time.

hour and 30 minutes later

I finally finished just in the nick of time. It wrecks of bleach but nothing a little spray of frebreze won't make go away. I smile my same crooked smile. The one I always smile when by myself. I decide to change. I feel dull so I guess I'll wear grey. I finally find the perfect outfit to wear to bed. I cuddle with my ugly dolls on the couch waiting for my parents to get home.

After a while I hear my parents come in. "Hi Sweets" my moms says acting like every ones nice and peachy. I laugh at hear tone. I finally hear my dad come in. He doesn't sound so happy. " Worst movie I've ever seen. What type of bull crap was that..Next time I choose the movie.". I smile. I jump up and hug my dad. He hugs me back. "Well someones happy were back" my mom said. "Well I missed you guys." I say still smiling. My mom yawns. "Well it's time we all get some sleep kiddo" .

We all agree and head upstairs for some much need rest.