The Only Words I Have For You

My Mother,

Isn't that what I'm supposed to think of you as?
The woman who gave birth to me, cared for me, gave me every opportunity.

Right now, I can tell you that I think of you as the one who abandoned me, who broke me, broke my heart. I thought you were supposed to care, love me. I was and still am just an inconvenience, the ungrateful child. The stupid and useless one.

I can't say I miss you, I miss what a mother really is. I want a hug, not from a friend but from someone I can see everyday. I want a hug from someone who loves me, family. Where's the mother I could have had? She dissipated the moment you made me feel like I deserved a slap and the streets forever.

I remember when I wasn't scared; Scared of failing, not being good enough. Now I don't care, there is no one here for me, not even the best friend who promised to help. Where's my mummy. Where is she? I'm so lost and sad and so very angry... Angry.

I don't want to see you again. I don't want to hear someone speak of you EVER again!

Goodbye Mother,
I hope the Devil's as nice as you are.

From the daughter;
Me.