I Am Invincible

Wow. OMG. I can’t believe I just did that. I can’t believe that I, Cameron Gaskarth, just asked out Zachary Mott. Truth be told, it came out a stuttered mess and I asked it so quietly the first time that Zach had to ask me to repeat myself, but... I can’t believe I did that. Zach stayed silent for a few minutes, not looking at me and I was about to fall off his lap, I was shaking so hard, as I waited with anticipation for my answer. He turned to face me, and I was about to burst into tears because his face gave nothing away. Just tell me, damnit! I screamed at Zach inside my head. I hated waiting for answers for anything; anyone who knew me knew that, and waiting for Zach’s answer was making me go insane.

And suddenly his face changed. It broke out into a smile that lit up his entire face and made his gorgeous eyes sparkle. He didn’t say a word, but grabbed me around the waist (seeing as I was still situated on his lap) and squeezed me tightly.

“Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes!” he exclaimed. Then his face dropped as he stopped squeezing the life out of me. He looked at me directly in the eyes, and asked “What are we going to do? A-about you and Emilie? I mean... so she isn’t technically your girlfriend, but... people think she is...” he finished uncertainly. He’s right.

I didn’t want Emilie to get hurt by her so-called friends because her ‘boyfriend’ suddenly decided he wants to make out with guys. But I didn’t want to not be with Zach either. I really liked him, and I wanted to be open about the fact that I liked him someday too. But I didn’t want my best friend hurt in the process of my coming out, whenever that may be. I mean, I don’t even know if I’m...gay or not. I’ve never really found guys attractive before I met Zach. I guess my orientation at the moment can be described as confused. Is that one of the options for a MySpace profile? No? Damn.

While I was processing everything, Zach had one arm loosely wrapped around me, and the other was rubbing circles on my back with the flat of his hand. It felt nice. I sighed and leaned backwards into his chest.
“What am I going to dooo-ooo?” I whined. I could feel his breath against my neck when he answered me.
“I don’t know, baby –” He called me ‘baby’. I had a mini spaz attack about how good it sounded coming out of his mouth, before my brain reminded me that he was still talking, “—secret for a little while. I mean, give you time to come to terms with everything... time for things to...change with Emilie?”
“Time to break up with her?” I asked.
I felt him nod, “Yeah...or whatever you want to do. Are you planning on telling your family and that?”
I sighed. I did want to; of course I did. I wanted to shout it off the highest building that I liked Zach, but I didn’t know how they’d take it; I didn’t know how anyone would take it.
I turned so I was facing him. “I want to eventually, but maybe not just yet? Will you be mad if I wait a while?”
“No, baby. Of course not. You know how long it took me to come out to my parents? Ages. And I didn’t even mean to, either. I didn’t ask them to walk in on me and my ex the first time we—” he broke off, blushing furiously. It was cute. I’d never seen him blush; it was usually me with the tomato-y face. “Yeah anyway, it didn’t do me any good waiting, but if you want to wait, I’m perfectly okay with it,” he smiled at me and hugged me to him again. I relaxed in his arms. This is where I want to be. It felt right. I heard Zach sigh contentedly behind me and I snuggled further into him; closing my eyes as I did so.

It was silent for a while, and I was just drifting off to sleep, when the door of Zach’s apartment was thrown open with a great deal of force and a certain red-haired someone came running through it, yelling at the top of her lungs, causing me to fall off Zach’s lap and land on the floor with a thud.

“Zachary!!!! Zach! You won’t believe it. The photo shoot was amazing! They were so professional and-” Rachael broke off when she saw me sitting on the floor looking disoriented. “Hey Cam, what are you still doing here? Anyway,” she started up again, “they were totally professional, but they were so nice and they did what I asked them and it was just amazing. Zach! Zach, are you listening to me?”
“Ra-ach! We were having a moment, and you ruined it!” Zach whined. “He was falling asleep on my lap!”
I blushed; I didn’t think he’d noticed...

Rach looked confused for a second, and looked between Zach and me a few times before she realised exactly what she’d interrupted. She let out a scream and then threw herself onto Zach in a bone-crushing hug. I guess it was a good thing I’d fallen off his lap, otherwise I would have been flattened. After yelling at him about how “I told you he liked you, you loser. Haven’t you learnt this by now: I’m always right”, Rachael launched herself at me and hugged me tightly.

While she was unlatching herself from me and standing up, Rach looked smug.
“You two are so cute! I knew you’d get together one day. Didn’t I tell you, Zachary, that he liked you?” I blushed, and looked down. Zach leaned down and grabbed my chin, making me look up into his eyes.
“Stop it,” he said.
“Stop...what?” I asked, shocked. I hadn’t done anything.
“Stop being so freaking cute all the time.” And he slid himself down onto the floor with me, took my face in his hands and kissed me lightly on the lips.
“Nawwwwwww!” Rach squealed. Without breaking the kiss, Zach removed one of his hands from my cheek and gave her the finger. She laughed, and went into the kitchen, leaving us alone. Zach deepened the kiss as he wrapped his arms around my neck, and I let out a little squeak. I was a little embarrassed, but content. This was where I belonged.