Status: Finished!
She Used to Be a Pearl
And I Will Try To Fix You
"Are you sure that you want to do this?" John asked me for the millionth time.
"Yes." I answered as he picked up my luggage and loaded it into the humongous tour bus.
I owed it to Amanda.
"Because if you really don't want to we can figure something out. I don't want you to feel like you're being forced into this." He rambled.
Forced. A word I was too familiar with.
"It's fine, John." I assured him.
He looked at me and gave me a crooked grin.
"What?" I asked feeling extremely self conscious.
"I just...nothing." He finally said.
I frowned and walked back into the bus. It was so obvious that none of them even wanted me here. I'm awkward and no fun. I don't drink or party. He was asking if I was okay with coming because he wants me to leave.
I quickly fought the tears forming in my eyes that were followed by a pounding in my head.
I felt like an idiot standing in the middle of the bus trying not to cry.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Kennedy asked. "You look like you just lost your best friend."
I forced a small smile and shook my head.
"I'm fine. Just a little tired."
"Don't lie to me." He jokingly warned.
My breath hitched in my throat at that sentence. Even though he had said it in a non-threatening manner it still managed to bring those events that I tried so hard to forget to the forefront of my mind.
I fought the tears once again and held my head.
"I have a headache. I'm going to go rest." I informed him.
Before he could say anything I made a B-line to my bunk which was covered in purple sheets and too many pillows. I crawled in and closed the curtain.
I let the tears flow down my cheeks silently until I fell asleep.
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"Where did Caty go?" I asked Kennedy once I stepped onto the bus.
"She's taking a nap." He replied. "What'd you say to her?"
"What are you talking about?" I questioned.
"She looked like she was going to cry."
Then it hit me. She was offended by what I said.
I was going to tell her that I loved the way she said my name, but I thought it would be coming on too strong.
I felt something for her. I don't know why, but she just amazes me. I want to know her story. I want to know everything about her.
Ignoring further questions from Kenny I started to walk back to the bunk room but stopped when I heard sniffling.
Fuck. She was crying.
I knew it couldn't have been from what I said.
Somebody broke her. I don't who or how, but they did.
But there's one thing I'm sure of. I am going to fix her.
I don't care how long it takes, I'm going to get her to trust me. I'm going to get her to smile and laugh. I'm going to get her to love me.
"Yes." I answered as he picked up my luggage and loaded it into the humongous tour bus.
I owed it to Amanda.
"Because if you really don't want to we can figure something out. I don't want you to feel like you're being forced into this." He rambled.
Forced. A word I was too familiar with.
"It's fine, John." I assured him.
He looked at me and gave me a crooked grin.
"What?" I asked feeling extremely self conscious.
"I just...nothing." He finally said.
I frowned and walked back into the bus. It was so obvious that none of them even wanted me here. I'm awkward and no fun. I don't drink or party. He was asking if I was okay with coming because he wants me to leave.
I quickly fought the tears forming in my eyes that were followed by a pounding in my head.
I felt like an idiot standing in the middle of the bus trying not to cry.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Kennedy asked. "You look like you just lost your best friend."
I forced a small smile and shook my head.
"I'm fine. Just a little tired."
"Don't lie to me." He jokingly warned.
My breath hitched in my throat at that sentence. Even though he had said it in a non-threatening manner it still managed to bring those events that I tried so hard to forget to the forefront of my mind.
I fought the tears once again and held my head.
"I have a headache. I'm going to go rest." I informed him.
Before he could say anything I made a B-line to my bunk which was covered in purple sheets and too many pillows. I crawled in and closed the curtain.
I let the tears flow down my cheeks silently until I fell asleep.
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"Where did Caty go?" I asked Kennedy once I stepped onto the bus.
"She's taking a nap." He replied. "What'd you say to her?"
"What are you talking about?" I questioned.
"She looked like she was going to cry."
Then it hit me. She was offended by what I said.
I was going to tell her that I loved the way she said my name, but I thought it would be coming on too strong.
I felt something for her. I don't know why, but she just amazes me. I want to know her story. I want to know everything about her.
Ignoring further questions from Kenny I started to walk back to the bunk room but stopped when I heard sniffling.
Fuck. She was crying.
I knew it couldn't have been from what I said.
Somebody broke her. I don't who or how, but they did.
But there's one thing I'm sure of. I am going to fix her.
I don't care how long it takes, I'm going to get her to trust me. I'm going to get her to smile and laugh. I'm going to get her to love me.
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