Twins.

‘She’s going to New York’ I thought in my head as I stared at the text. I couldn’t help but to feel worried for her, sure New York was a great city, but it also depended on what part of the city one lived.

I grew up in the Upper East Side surrounded by rich people and a safe environment. Ariana was going to go to New York all by herself, and she wouldn’t be able to afford a nice place.

I stare at my phone and press the reply button.

It’s great that you’re following your dreams, and I hope you accomplish all your goals. It would mean a lot if you stayed in my condo, and I know you’re going to say no, but I think it would be for the best, at least until you find a stable job and have money to get your own place, so I won’t take no for an answer. I’ll call the receptionist to let them know you will be coming and for them to give you the key .Good luck.

I press the send button and throw my phone on my bed as I sigh and head to the bathroom to take a long bath.

___________________________1 Month Later.

I close my eyes and smile as I feel Alex brush his lips on my neck.

“Your skin is so soft,” he murmurs as I feel his fingers intertwine with my own.

I open my eyes and turn my head to look at him; he smiles at me and rests his head on my shoulder. My smile fades as I stare at his bedroom ceiling. I feel my stomach turn as I think of mine and Alex’s relationship, it feels too perfect, like I’m going to wake up any minute and all of this would just be nothing but a dream.

“Alex?” I whisper

“What?” Alex whispers back and I can feel his warm breath on my neck.

“I-Please don’t break my heart.”

Alex sits up and looks at me with a questioning look, “what makes you think I will do that?”

I sit up and look at him with sad eyes, “Jack told me about Ariana, I don’t want to be your rebound.”

“You’re not a rebound Meghan; you will never be that to me.” Alex says as he cups my face with his warm hands.

“I’m sorry, I just… I didn’t just want to be the last resort.”

“You’re not, you’re my first choice, and I promise to never break your heart.” Alex tells me as he presses his lips hard against mine.

I close my eyes as I feel my body touch the soft mattress; I begin to kiss him eagerly as his hands start to tug on my shirt. He pulls away and looks me straight in the eyes.

“We don’t have to,” he says in a low voice.

“I want to,” I reply with a smile and pull him down towards me and begin to kiss him once more.

___________________________ALEX.

“What’s wrong?” Meghan asks as her swing comes to a complete stop.

I shake my head as I stare at the sand, “nothing,” I reply, but everything is wrong.

“Alex-“

“It’s nothing important.” I cut her off as I look at her with a fake smile.

“Okay,” she replies in a low voice and sighs as she begins to swing once more.

I stare out at the empty cold park; winter was approaching which meant snow. I sigh as I start to feel miserable; maybe it was because I had found out about Ariana moving to New York and for some reason I felt sad and like a part of me was missing. Or maybe it was because I had realized I was still in love with Ariana, and I wanted to be with her.

I look at Meghan and my heart drops; I was going to break her heart, even after I had promised her I wouldn’t, but I had to do it, and I had to tell Ariana I was in love with her before it was too late, if I didn’t I would just regret it the rest of my life.
I stand up from the swing and shove my hands into my sweater pockets.

“Meghan I need to talk to you,” I say as my heart begins to beat like crazy.

She jumps off the swing with and laughs a bit.

“There’s something I need to tell you.”

“What is it?” She asks with a small smile.

“I’m sorry.”

“Sorry about what?” She asks as her eyebrows come closer to each other.

I take in a deep breath and exhale. “Please forgive me for what I’m about to do.”

“Alex?”

“I can’t be with you.”

“W-What?”

“I don’t love you,” I whisper.

“That’s okay, it takes time,” she says with watery eyes and trembling lips.

“I won’t fall in love with you… because-“

“Because you’re in love with her,” she cries out as her tears begin to roll down her face.

“Meghan, I’m so sorry.”

“You lied to me! You made me believe that I was what you wanted! I gave myself to you!” She shouts and begins to sob.

“Meghan, please-“

“You fucking promised!” She shouts as she begins to sob into her hands.

How could I do this to her? I was the one who made her fall for me, I made her believe in lies that I couldn’t. I made her believe in false words, and false feeling all because I didn’t want to be alone.

I stare at Meghan with watery eyes, “I care about you, but I would have only hurt you more by pretending.”

“If you did you wouldn’t have lead me on.” She tells me as her voice cracks.

“I wish you all the happiness I will never have,” she says as fresh tears roll down her face, she turns around and walks away leaving me all alone in the cold.