A Beautiful Tragedy

Today was a special event for all of us in the Avenged family. Today my two best friends were getting married. As promised, I was maid of honor while Brian was best man. Everything was in order and perfect, cept one thing. I was waiting on the bride to be. "Bully, you alright in there?" knocking on the bathroom door that my friend was in, the door locked. "Yeah" I heard her call out before unlocking the bathroom. Once she stepped out, my jaw dropped. I never thought I would see the day where Erica would wear a dress.

"This is the only time you will ever catch me in a dress" as if she read my mind. We laughed. "Bully, you are gorgeous. Zacky is one lucky man, just wait till he sees you" awwing at my best friends beauty. "You look great yourself. I have good taste" smiling at the dress she had picked out for me to wear. Was a short strap less dress. Light pink with darker pink around my mid, which met in the back where the bow was. I actually liked it myself. I felt cute in it.

Soon enough the nuptials were over and we all got ready to head over to the after party. I thought to stay in my dress because it was actually comfy. During the nuptials though, I couldn't help but think to myself on how badly I wanted to already be married to Brian. I already had everything planned, now we were just finding the time. Plus to put more on my shoulder. I haven't been feeling well again. Feeling sick every morning, tired all the time and my back has been hurting. I admit, Brian and I have been very sexual. Ever since we got engaged. I honestly don't know what has come over me but I didn't want to take the spot light from this day.

Starring off into space as I sat at the head table, next to Erica. They were expecting a speech from me because I was best friends with both of them. I wasn't looking forward to it because I was never great with speeches. I didn't even bother to write anything down because if I was to be expected to, I wanted it to come from the heart. Looking over at Brian who was on the other side of Zacky, seemed to be caught up in a conversation with the groom. I sighed because lately he has been putting a lot of space between us. Don't get me wrong, the man is still a sweet heart but when you have that feeling like something is off or wrong. You just know and for the past few days, that is how it has been.

Our conversations have been much shorter and Brian has been staying up more. Leaving me alone in our huge bed. During the day when he is home, he uses up his time either watching tv or in his studio. Other times, he wasn't even home. I won't sit here and say I'm needy or want to know what he is doing at all times. I respect his time alone and also trust him very much. That is why I'm engaged to him after all. Just as a woman, I care. I want to be able to know when something is wrong for him. To know how to ease the problem.

"You ok?" hearing Val who was onto my left, she was one of the brides maids. I looked over at her and nodded. "Yeah was just spacing out, sorry" giving her a week smile. Not questioning, she took it. "Well are you going to do a speech because they would love for you to start it off?" smiling big at me. "Uh, I guess I can" catching my words in my throat as I said them. I stood up with my glass of wine, tapping the glass with my butter knife as I grabbed everyones attention. The DJ at that time came over and handed me a mic.

"Hello everyone. I would like to start off by saying thank you to those who could make it tonight to Erica and Zacky's wedding. Now just letting you know, I ain't great with these things. Honestly this is my first" giggling at myself, "Anyways I just want to say that I never thought I would see the day that my two most amazing best friends would be husband and wife" looking straight at the couple. I was really happy for them. "Then again I never thought I would see the day that Erica would be wearing a dress" at that time everyone in the room laughed, even Erica who nodded in agreement.

"Erica, you were always the sister I never had. There for me through the best days and always there through the worst. As we grew up, I looked up to you. Every time I would come up with a stupid idea for us to do, you were there to be the smart one. Trying to talk me out of it" laughing with Erica as we both sat and thought about it. "I love you for that. Now Zacky, honestly I just thought you were a weird kid" causing laughs to brake out once again. "Just kidding but really, you were my brother. I knew I was able to run to you if some boy broke my heart. Every time I ran up to you crying, there was no questions cept one....who's ass do I have to kick?" Both Brian and Zacky cracked up as they clapped.

"I want to thank you both for the friendships you gave me. Growing up with you two has built me character for the future. Erica teaching me how to love and accept life while Zacky teaching me how to protect myself. Never taking anyones bullshit. I love you both and I'm very happy for you two. Congratulations" I then raised my glass before putting my lips up to it. I take it my speech was ok knowing that everyone was clapping when I went to sit. Brian even seemed to have liked it, good because I missed his smile.

When the speeches were done, we all sat around and had fun. Tapping our glasses every time we wanted the couple to kiss, dancing and eating. I even took some pictures and video for memories. I was enjoying myself, that was till I saw a woman flirting with my fiancée. Brian was up against the wall, looking at the beautiful couple as he talked to her. The woman on the other hand was laughing and placing her hand softly against his arm, as though she would fall from laughter if she didn't. All this had me worked up. Enough to where I wanted him to know.

I stormed in the direction and pushed the woman slightly over so I could stare at Brian. I shoved the camera in his hands. "I hope you enjoy her. I'm going home" I spat before walking out of the building.

Guess this did catch Brian's attention because I heard him call out to me as he kept on my heels. "What the hell are you talking about?" asking as he grabbed my arm and spun me around. "I saw that woman flirting with you and you took it" showing how pissed off I really was. "Charlie, baby. Stop. You are assuming right now when really you need to know that I love you" he spoke softly at me. For some reason this calmed me. I wasn't mad anymore.
"I don't know what is coming over me. Just lately you have been distant which worries me" looking up at the man I love. Brian smiled, "Was that all? Charlie, I'm sorry. The band is in the process of a new album. So the pressure has gotten to me. Just know that it is you who wears the ring" as he said that, he pointed at the rock on my finger. "Yeah well I hope we get married before" I soon stopped before I went too far. Brian caught this though.

"Before what?" he asked. Eyeing me which caused more pressure. To hell with it, he is to be my husband. I should be honest with him. "Brian, I think I'm pregnant" I spoke softly, hoping he didn't hear me. I could tell though that he did because he looked shocked.