Day By Day, Life Goes On

That crush haunted me.

Every move I made.

Every word I said.

Had to be checked and rechecked.

I couldn’t give it away.

Frankie would never love me.

I was a mess.

I started drinking to hide the pain.

The pain that crush caused me.

I think he knew.

That my spiraling downwards

Into that black hole

Was all his fault.

The alcohol. The pills.

The drugs. The sex.

Consumed all of me.

The only thing I could see was him.

His beautiful face.

His piercing eyes.

Could only hear his voice.

Calling my name.

Gerard.

Come back to me.