Damned If I Do Ya, Damned If I Don't
Twenty Six
*Alex's Point of View*
I drove home very late the next day, when I got in I had a missed call from my parents, they threw me out once I told them I was going to be a dad, so I now lived In the bands club house with Lisa. She was sitting reading when I came in
“So you finally came back from that slut” she glared at me
“Don't start” I snapped
“Do you expect me not to care that you would rather spend time with that bitch, than me !” she spat “I'm your fucking girlfriend”
“I was looking after my new born son” I shouted at her “You are so fucking selfish”
“That's rich coming from you” she screamed “I bet you just fucked her ! I bet that baby isn't even yours”
My head shot up
“What ?” I stuttered
“You fucking heard me” she spat, her words were like venom
I walked out and drove, tears were streaming down my face how could she of said that to me. I drove to Katie's house and I sat in the car for a few minuets. I was about to fall asleep when there was a light tap on the window
“Alex” she sighed “Come on”
I opened the door and slid out of the car, she let out another sigh and helped me into the couch.
“Where is Josh ?” I asked
“He is sleeping” she replied
We walked into the living room and I lay on the sofa
“Alex, it's half past twelve” she said “What are you doing ?”
“I love you” he whispered and started to cry
She didn't say anything
“Is Josh mine ?” I mumbled
Her head shot up
“Of course” she gasped “I have only ever had sex with you !”
I looked down at my hands
“Unlike you Alex, I was happy with what we had” she said
“I was hap-” I began
“Don't start” she snapped
“But” I started
“Alex, you hurt me, more than anyone else ever had” she whispered
I couldn't form words and I felt this huge urge to cut
“I need to go to the bathroom” I mumbled
“Upstairs, second on your left” she said
I stood up and walked into the bathroom, I locked the door then sat down. I twirled the blade a few times in my hand before I eventually ran it over my wrists, I cut deeper than I ever had, I had nothing to live for. Katie hated me, the band didn't need me and Josh would be better off without me, I wanted to die. My vision was blurring and I could see all the blood. Katie tapped and the bathroom door
“Alex” she asked “What are you doing in there”
“Goodbye” I whispered
“Alex !” Katie was screaming “NO !”
She managed to push into the bathroom and the last thing I saw was here beside me crying.
I drove home very late the next day, when I got in I had a missed call from my parents, they threw me out once I told them I was going to be a dad, so I now lived In the bands club house with Lisa. She was sitting reading when I came in
“So you finally came back from that slut” she glared at me
“Don't start” I snapped
“Do you expect me not to care that you would rather spend time with that bitch, than me !” she spat “I'm your fucking girlfriend”
“I was looking after my new born son” I shouted at her “You are so fucking selfish”
“That's rich coming from you” she screamed “I bet you just fucked her ! I bet that baby isn't even yours”
My head shot up
“What ?” I stuttered
“You fucking heard me” she spat, her words were like venom
I walked out and drove, tears were streaming down my face how could she of said that to me. I drove to Katie's house and I sat in the car for a few minuets. I was about to fall asleep when there was a light tap on the window
“Alex” she sighed “Come on”
I opened the door and slid out of the car, she let out another sigh and helped me into the couch.
“Where is Josh ?” I asked
“He is sleeping” she replied
We walked into the living room and I lay on the sofa
“Alex, it's half past twelve” she said “What are you doing ?”
“I love you” he whispered and started to cry
She didn't say anything
“Is Josh mine ?” I mumbled
Her head shot up
“Of course” she gasped “I have only ever had sex with you !”
I looked down at my hands
“Unlike you Alex, I was happy with what we had” she said
“I was hap-” I began
“Don't start” she snapped
“But” I started
“Alex, you hurt me, more than anyone else ever had” she whispered
I couldn't form words and I felt this huge urge to cut
“I need to go to the bathroom” I mumbled
“Upstairs, second on your left” she said
I stood up and walked into the bathroom, I locked the door then sat down. I twirled the blade a few times in my hand before I eventually ran it over my wrists, I cut deeper than I ever had, I had nothing to live for. Katie hated me, the band didn't need me and Josh would be better off without me, I wanted to die. My vision was blurring and I could see all the blood. Katie tapped and the bathroom door
“Alex” she asked “What are you doing in there”
“Goodbye” I whispered
“Alex !” Katie was screaming “NO !”
She managed to push into the bathroom and the last thing I saw was here beside me crying.
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Merry Christmas :)