Damned If I Do Ya, Damned If I Don't

My first day of school started off great, it was wonderful not having to wear a uniform. Holly wore a skirt which looked more like a belt and a top that showed off her cleavage. I seen her a just rolled my eyes. it took us 20 minute to get to school and I was excited to see Alex, I hadn't told him I was starting school so this was going to be a surprise. Once we got off the bus the excitement left me and I become nervous we made out way to the office and after a talk about conduct I made our way to my first class. I had to suffer French.

I walked into the class and everyone stared at me
"Erm I’m new" I mumbled
"Come on in" said the teacher "You must be Katie?"
"Yeah, where can I sit ? "
"Just find a seat" she replied with a smile "I’m Miss Smith"
So I sat down on the first seat I found, I was next to a girl who looked like a barbie, she was really friendly though and made conversation with me. The next class was maths and then at break I found my sister however she had already made some new friends and they were all giggling about something
"He would have been all over you if you weren't in a class" one giggled
"I know he is so fit" said the other
"He was obviously flirting" boasted my sister "even his name is hot,Alex"
I heard his name and I couldn't move, but Alex he wouldn't do that, we got on so well and I thought he liked me ? I had convinced myself it was a different Alex until from behind the water machine I saw him walk over to her and flirt, I considered crying but instead I laughed he never cared about me, when he came to see me it was just thought it would be an easy fuck. Luckily the bell rang and I walked down to the music department.

I walked in to the classroom
"Excuse me sir, but I am new" I said
"How nice" he replied "I am Mr Mac, you must be Katie ? "
"Yes" I smiled
"There is a spare seat next to Alex near the back" she said
I nodded and turned to face Alex, I glared and he looked shocked. Good I thought to myself. I sat down next to him and didn't even look over
"Katie" he began
"Don't you fucking dare talk to me" I hissed at him
He opened his mouth to speak again but he didn't, instead he faced the front
"I seen practically eye fucking my sister earlier, did you think you would just try and get a fuck from me and then leave me to hurt ? did you ever feel anything for me ? did you ever listen or give a fuck ?" I asked
"I didn't mean to, you mean everything to me I wrote a song for you, I told you everything" he looked like he meant what he said but I couldn't believe him, not after this. The period went by quickly and when the bell rang Alex spun me around and said he loved me, I walked away.

I went to the sick bay and told the woman I was ill, she was a very sharp and unsympathetic looking woman. I sat for about twenty minute then I was told to go to class, it was nearly lunch so I decided just to bare the rest of the day. I couldn't be that bad ?. I walked into the classroom and handed the teacher my note
"Go and sit in the spare seat on the let side" mumbled the man
I nodded at sat down, I was instructed to copy down the rest of my English notes.
"Mr Gaskarth, you are hear to learn, not chat to Mr Barakat!" yelled Mr Stewart "Move seats now!"
"But Sir" replied Alex
"No buts go and sit next to the new girl" he yelled again
Oh fucking great, another class where he was near me, I sighed as I moved my bag. He sat down in silence and only glanced over at me once. I still felt hurt but I thought I should say something. I was about to open my mouth when he took my hand a gave me a piece of paper, I looked at him and he gave me a weak smile. I put the paper in my pocket and waited for the bell to ring. As soon as the bell went that indicated lunch, I walked out the class and read it:

Katie
I know I messed up and I know what I did was wrong. I was just didn't think what we had was love, it was only when I looked at you in music that I felt I needed you, that I couldn't go on without you I am so scared to lose you, I wouldn't know what to do:
"I'm gonna break down these walls
I built around myself
I wanna fall so in love
with you and no one else”
This is the song I wrote for you and I just want you to know that I love you and that I care and also if you don't forgive me I will understand but I am truly sorry.

Alex.

I fought back my tears and I couldn't help but smile, I knew he meant this, I knew he loved me and it felt great.