A Little Piece of Heaven

Brian's POV

How could I have been so stupid.

I felt nothing for Michelle anymore.

I am in love with Cynthia.

She's having my fucking babies.

"I am such a fucking idiot!" I yelled.

"We know that. Glad you finally realized it." Johnny said.

"What the fuck were you thinking?" Matt growled looking from me to Michelle who was holding a bag of ice against a red and swollen cheek.

Val had smacked the shit out of her.

I wish she had done the same to me.

At least it would give me something else to focus on instead of all the pain I had caused Cynthia.

"I---, I don't, it's hard to explain." I stammered.

"You better figure out a fuckin' way to explain it." Jimmy said.

"I, I've been having some doubts about Cynthia lately." I said.

"What the fuck does that mean?!" Matt yelled.

"I have no doubts that I'm head over heels in love with her." I said, looking around at all of my friends.

By the look on their faces, I could tell that they thought I was full of shit.

"Anyone with two eyes can see that. I've just been doubting if I'm good enough to be with her." I said lowly.

They all looked at me with crazy eyes.

"So you decided to make out with Michelle instead of figuring out why you feel that way?" Val pressed angrily.

"You decided to betray your girlfriends trust." Jimmy said.

"Your pregnant girlfriends trust!" Matt yelled angrily.

I cringed at the tone of his voice.

But I expected nothing less.

"It wasn't like that." Michelle insisted.

"No one asked for your input." Val said.

She turned and looked at Michelle with hard eyes.

She instantly closed her mouth.

"Not necessarily. I started thinking that maybe I was doubting myself because I still had feelings for Michelle." I said softly.

"So what did you feel when you kiss her?" Matt asked.

"Was it worth causing Cynthia and your babies all of this pain?" Jimmy asked.

"There's no prize worthy enough for causing her pain." I said slowly.

I looked over at them and then my eyes shot back to the ground.

"But I didn't feel anything." I added.

Matt looked up at me in surprise.

"I'm in love with Cynthia." I said firmly, believing every word that I said.

"You have a lot of trust to earn back." Johnny said.

"I know that I do." I told them.

"I hope you're up for it." Val said, her voice still full of anger.

"I am." I said strongly.

Val looked at me doubtfully.

But I was ready to prove them wrong.

All of them.

"I'd do anything." I whispered.