Thought I Had It Figured Out

Once we were out of the beautiful building of Cosmo, I was hit with wild. I really wish I would of brought my gloves with me. I thought.

“Whose car would you like to take?” James asked me. I glanced up at him raising my eye brow at him.

“Oh, well I thought we were walking?”

“Well if you really want to walk then be my guest.” He told me with a grin on his face. I laughed a bit.

“No, no, we could take your car I guess. We are coming back right?” I asked him.

“Of course… You wouldn’t really think I would kidnap you” he joked.

“Well you never know these days” I joked back. “So where is your car?” I asked.

“Right over here” he said while pointing at the silver porches.

“You own a porches?” I asked not taking my eyes off the porches.

“Yea, do you like?” he asked me while unlocking the door as I walked to the passenger’s side

“More like love” I grinned at him. He grinned back and got in the car. I did the same. James started the car and I’m mad by the Dead Weather started playing.

“You listen to the dead weather?” I asked him. He didn’t seem like the type of guy that was into that kind of music.

“Yes, their wonderful band. Don’t tell me you thought I listened to rap?” he smirked at me.

“Oh no of course not” I said with humour in my voice.

“Good because I don’t listen to that crap” he said and started driving out of the parking lot.

We drove in silence for about 15 minuets. It was really awkward to be honest. You would think being in a car with such a hot guy would make it un-awkward. But I couldn’t get my mind off of Seth. I know it wasn’t the time or place to think about him but I couldn’t help myself. I just wish he knew how much it hurt me. I thought we were just friends, and nothing else. And he breaks up with his girlfriend. He did have a good reason because that bitch cheated on him in their own home. But you don’t just go have sex with your best friend and then confess your love for them. It doesn’t work that way. Why can’t my love life be out a romance novel where you meet the guy and its love right there? But no, the world hates me and wants me to die sad and lonely. Err… too many thoughts at once.

“Jasmine?” James said while touching my bare nee lightly. I couldn’t help but blush.

“Yes?” I asked him.

“Are you okay… you seem really deep in thought” he told me. God I hope I didn’t have a retarded face while thinking about my life problems. Note to self… never think in front of a guy again!

“Oh yea I’m fine.” I said while looking at him in his beautiful blue eyes. I think I was wrong when I said Miranda’s boyfriend had the most beautiful eyes. James eyes topped the hottest blue eyes on the planet!

“Do you want to talk about it?” he asked me. Didn’t I just tell him I was fine? Even though it was lie, maybe he knew… hell the world wants me dead and I’m the worst liar on earth. What else do I have to add to the list?

“You seemed a little bit off today. Not yourself” he told me.

“What do you mean by that? You met me once.” As I said that he laughed while looking at the road and looked at me and then back at the road.

“When we met you were so flirty and smiley.” Theres goes another one for my list… The Worst Flirter…ON THE PLANET! “And now its half smiles and not so much flirting” he said. Was I that easy to read? I was like a book… a book that had only a couple of pages that kept repeating. LOSER! LOSER!

“Oh well…I” what was I suppose to say. Oh I’m glad you noticed and let’s talk about my problems! I think not.

“Sorry to put you on the spot there. Wasn’t meaning too” he said. While looking at me, I smiled at him.

“No it fine. Its just I didn’t really realize I was that easy to read”

“It’s not that you’re easy to read, It’s that your really bad at flirting” he said. He say
what? Am I going deaf or is my life ending now. I looked at him and he had a smirk on his face.

“You’re kidding right” I asked him. Oh god, please say this is a joke and I’ll never have sex until I’m married. I promise.

“yes I’m kidding” there goes me not having sex.

“Oh thank god. Give me a heart attack much.” I said while putting my hand over my chest where my heart is.

“so you going to tell me what bugging you or is that to personal?” I thought he forgot about that… I guess not. I thought.

“I had sex with my best friend” I said.

“isn’t your best friend a girl. Not that I think lesbians are bad or anything but you didn’t seem the type.” Oh god he thinks I’m a lesbian. That’s what I get for opening my mouth.

“oh no, no. Never gross. Bad image in my head… I am not a lesbian and never will be. I meant my guy best friend” I told him.

“Now that sounds better” he smiled.

“Good”

“So what’s wrong with having sex with your best friend? Is he bad?” he asked me.

“No he isn’t bad… it’s just” I guess I have to tell him. “ I dated a while back and we
had unprotected sex and I thought I was pregnant with his child and it scared the crap out of me. And he ended up dating this other girl and they lasted till yesterday. He came home she was cheating on him. And my friend Miranda threw a party last night and he came and he stayed the night and I was drunk as hell we kind of had sex. Unprotected sex. And I freak out him this morning and he told me he always loved him and I kicked him out and I understand if you want to fire me.” I told him.

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