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I'm Sorry...
Seven.
Dear Alex,
I'm sorry you never had a chance.
I'm sorry you were born doomed.
I'm sorry you were so freaken cute.
I'm sorry you were such a nice person.
I'm sorry you became my ray of light when my life was in a dark, bad place.
I'm sorry we were both so young.
I'm so sorry that my sister always shared a room with you.
I'm sorry that you became my very best friend.
I'm sorry you were in isolation so often.
I'm sorry that when I came to visit my sister and you were in isolation, we would press our hands to the glass and smile at each other.
I'm sorry you not only had three different types of cancer but a brain tumor from birth.
I'm sorry that you were seven when you died, I was eight.
I'm sorry your world ended when mine was starting to look up.
I'm sorry because of that my internal world fell apart.
I'm sorry that for some reason, I always thought you were immortal.
I'm sorry it's only really hitting me now, seven years later, that your gone.
I'm sorry that we fought that one time over the black crayon.
I'm sorry I took the lion teddy.
I'm sorry about that time I told you the nurse didn't bring you a Fat Frog ice-pop. She did. I ate it.
I'm sorry that I always thought one day I'd see your pale face and bald head poke it's way round the corner and that I'd see your bright crooked smile as you ran after me, in a pale hospital gown.
I'm sorry that I'll never see that day.
I'm sorry that your death still hurts so much.
I'm sorry that I wasn't in the hospital on the day of your death.
I'm sorry your parents, Brian and Lisa, had to go threw so much pain.
I'm sorry you never got to see your baby sister. Her name is Lee-Ann and she's SO beautiful. She has the same smile as you.
I'm sorry that I'm apologizing for knowing you because I love you. You were my best friend.
The only thing I'm really sorry about is that you had to go.
I'm sorry it wasn't me.
From your best friend,
Eternally,
Niamh.
I love you Alex.
I'm sorry you never had a chance.
I'm sorry you were born doomed.
I'm sorry you were so freaken cute.
I'm sorry you were such a nice person.
I'm sorry you became my ray of light when my life was in a dark, bad place.
I'm sorry we were both so young.
I'm so sorry that my sister always shared a room with you.
I'm sorry that you became my very best friend.
I'm sorry you were in isolation so often.
I'm sorry that when I came to visit my sister and you were in isolation, we would press our hands to the glass and smile at each other.
I'm sorry you not only had three different types of cancer but a brain tumor from birth.
I'm sorry that you were seven when you died, I was eight.
I'm sorry your world ended when mine was starting to look up.
I'm sorry because of that my internal world fell apart.
I'm sorry that for some reason, I always thought you were immortal.
I'm sorry it's only really hitting me now, seven years later, that your gone.
I'm sorry that we fought that one time over the black crayon.
I'm sorry I took the lion teddy.
I'm sorry about that time I told you the nurse didn't bring you a Fat Frog ice-pop. She did. I ate it.
I'm sorry that I always thought one day I'd see your pale face and bald head poke it's way round the corner and that I'd see your bright crooked smile as you ran after me, in a pale hospital gown.
I'm sorry that I'll never see that day.
I'm sorry that your death still hurts so much.
I'm sorry that I wasn't in the hospital on the day of your death.
I'm sorry your parents, Brian and Lisa, had to go threw so much pain.
I'm sorry you never got to see your baby sister. Her name is Lee-Ann and she's SO beautiful. She has the same smile as you.
I'm sorry that I'm apologizing for knowing you because I love you. You were my best friend.
The only thing I'm really sorry about is that you had to go.
I'm sorry it wasn't me.
From your best friend,
Eternally,
Niamh.
I love you Alex.