Don't Jump

I walk up the stairs of the building determined, brave. I can do it this time. i won't chicken out. I can't take this anymore. The stairs become harder to climb. with every step my heart speed up. Step. Badump. Step. Badump. Badump. I reach the top of the building and set my hand against the cold metal door. My breathing slowly calms and I smile to myself. This is the closest I've come. I know I can do it now.

I push the metal door and hear the sound of scraping metal. The door opens and I feel the cool night wind caress my face. Don't do thisit whispers. I ignore the warning and let my feet carry me out of the rust filled stairwell. Air slaps me in the face the second I step out as if it's trying to push me back. It pushed and pulls t my hair, causing me to be blinded. "Leave me alone!" I scream at the top of my lungs. Everything goes quiet and my hair falls back to my shoulders.

I take confident steps towards the ledge telling myself over and over, this is for you. I reach the ledge and pull myself up to stand on it. As I look down at the city I think, if only you were here. We would be walking those streets together. A tear slips down my face and is replaced by coldness as it falls into the city that means nothing to me without you.

I look down to the street to find you standing there, tears in your eyes. Your mouth moves and wind rushes to my ears. Don't jump. I can't catch you. This will only end in sadness. Don't do it. I look down in shock at you, not hearing a thing you say. I let myself fall from the building, arms reaching towards you. As I fall you disappear into mist. I told you I can't catch you. your voice whispered as my mind went into blackness.