1 Million Secrets

I act happy, I act positive, I act like an optimist but I'm not. The only reason I act positive is because my friend kept saying I was too negative and he was right so I made a new year's resolution to be more positive but it's hard.

I may act positive but I'm secretly negative, I'm secretly a pessimist. There are days where I just want to be negative, to sit there and frown but I don't, I keep that smile plastered to my face even if it's fake, even when I don't feel like smiling.

But my secret is, I may act like I'm better, like I'm happy, that I'm over everything that happened last year but I'm not. I'm over him but it still hurts, I still cry myself to sleep at night.

I just wish someone would see past that fake smile and realize that I need help. I help everyone else, when will someone realize that I need help too?