Status: New story.
Pale Grass
August 24th, 2004
I suck. I just really, really suck. I suck for wanting my life to turn around. I suck for being so selfish about every little thing. I just really suck, okay?
I feel so bitter and depressed. I feel backstabbed and betrayed. I feel so heartbroken, so dead. So... unalive. I feel lost and gone. Everything is gone.
Why can't I feel good? The reason: When I feel this way I don't see how anyone can feel better. I feel backstabbed, betrayed and depressed all at once. I feel this way and it's something I can't look past. It's something that won't go away for a long time and when I feel the sadness taking me away from the happiness I feel some sort of feeling that consumes me, eating me alive. I feel wrapped up in something so goddamn strong, I can't see anything past it. I can't see anything good. I feel like all my life is gone. I feel like it's all gone away and I'm feeling all lost and helpless and I feel like I'm in a space of nothingness. That's why I can't see any positives; I feel too sad.
No one understands how I feel. I wish I never felt this way. I feel like I'm battling something so much bigger than myself. I feel like I will never win, especially when this shit happens.
All is shit.
I feel so bitter and depressed. I feel backstabbed and betrayed. I feel so heartbroken, so dead. So... unalive. I feel lost and gone. Everything is gone.
Why can't I feel good? The reason: When I feel this way I don't see how anyone can feel better. I feel backstabbed, betrayed and depressed all at once. I feel this way and it's something I can't look past. It's something that won't go away for a long time and when I feel the sadness taking me away from the happiness I feel some sort of feeling that consumes me, eating me alive. I feel wrapped up in something so goddamn strong, I can't see anything past it. I can't see anything good. I feel like all my life is gone. I feel like it's all gone away and I'm feeling all lost and helpless and I feel like I'm in a space of nothingness. That's why I can't see any positives; I feel too sad.
No one understands how I feel. I wish I never felt this way. I feel like I'm battling something so much bigger than myself. I feel like I will never win, especially when this shit happens.
All is shit.