This Ain't a Fairytale

His lips were so soft, and when they were on mine, it felt the whole world had stopped.
I moved my arms so they were wrapped around his neck, and I felt Ryan pull me closer,
we didn't move from the spot we were in, just enjoyed the moment of having our lips together.
And it felt perfect.

But perfect moments have to be ruined "Kate where are you with my drink?" yelled Justin,
Ryan broke away from me, and then smiled "I'm sorry" he said, and grabbed his cup off the bench,
"It's okay" I said.
Why was he sorry? I wanted that, I needed that, it actually made me feel happy for about 20 seconds,
Ryan nodded, and walked out of the room taking Justin's cup with him,
I watched as he left, and as soon as he was gone, I ran my finger over my lips, and felt how soft they were after Ryan's lips had touched them,
I sighed and sunk down against the bench, and sat down on the floor, and stared at the cupboard across from me,
did that really happen?
did I just kiss Ryan?.

I sighed there was no point of thinking about getting another one, Justin wouldn't of allowed it,
if he found out I kissed Ryan he would go mental at... me. He would tell me I have no right to have a thing with his best friend,
and then say I deserve a shit boyfriend, a boy that isn't kind like Ryan is,
but maybe Justin will act differently, maybe he will accept Ryan and I being together,
I shook my head, this was Justin I was talking about.
He likes me being miserable.

I walked out of the kitchen, and saw Justin standing in the hallway, he had his cup in his hand.
"What were you thinking" said Justin and tossed his cup so his drink went all over my face,
I felt my bottom lip starting to quiver, as I felt my face start dripping water,
I wanted to scream, but I couldn't.
My scream would of been ignored.
"What did I do?" I asked.
"You made Ryan bring me my drink, and pour his own, that is YOUR job" yelled Justin.
I didn't say anything, I just stared at my brothers face, with fear of him.

Justin kept yelling, and got louder and louder, "I AM SUPPOSED TO BE HAVING A PARTY TONIGHT, AND I CAN'T IF YOU ARE MAKING MY FRIENDS DO WORK" yelled Justin,
that's when I couldn't take it anymore "I am sorry" I cried, and bolted for the staircase,
and ran up to my room crying.

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All I could hear was music blasting from our living room, and everyone cheering and screaming,
at least they couldn't hear the sound of my tears, I sighed and rubbed my face in my pillow trying to dry the tears off my face,
I wanted someone to tell me, Justin was only mucking around, and everything was going to be okay,
but I knew nothing was going to be okay, I knew that things are just going to get worse from here.

But then I remembered earlier today, and I started to smile, I remembered what it felt like having Ryan's lips on mine,
how the whole world was amazing, I soon felt the tears stop falling and my face started to dry up.
I sat up quickly and looked at my bedroom door, hoping that Justin would walk in and say sorry,
but I knew that wasn't going to happen.

Half an hour later, I heard a knock on my door, I ignored it and went back to what I was doing,
which was folding up Justin's washing and getting ready to take them into his room,
and then I heard my bedroom door start to creak open.

I sighed and stopped folding, and waited for who ever was coming into my personal space to enter,
and I knew it would of been Justin.

But it actually wasn't to my surprise it was... Ryan.
I smiled as I watched Ryan walk in the door and smile,
"You feeling okay?" he asked,
I sighed and didn't answer him, and went back to folding, I wasn't going to talk to him,
I couldn't. Not while Justin was like this, he would get even more angry with me,
he would probably tell mum, wait tell her what 'Mum, Jess kissed Ryan and they are probably going to have sex, and she will get
pregnant and have a kid at her age".
I sighed that's exactly what Justin would say to her, and she would believe him.

Ryan walked in and started folding up clothes, as he was helping me.
"I hope things aren't awkward between us" said Ryan,
I smiled "Why would they be awkward?" I asked.
"Because I kissed you" he answered, "And you kissed me"

What was I suppposed to say to him, 'Don't worry it will never happen again' or 'It didn't mean anything',
it bloody did mean something it meant alot, I felt so much when he kissed me,
I just want to feel that again.