This Ain't a Fairytale

So I was going to the movies with Ryan, and it was going to be a really nice, but very very dangerous night.
Dangerous because if Justin finds out, i'm pretty sure my life will be over, and nice because it was going to be Ryan and mine's first date.
And I couldn't wait to be honest. Ryan and I were going to keep what was going on between us a secret,
and do something that Justin wouldn't find out, write letters to each other,
not through the mail because eventually someone would find out, but through Justin.

Justin had decided that him and Ryan and Chazz need more bromance time together, well he was calling it 'Staying at each other's houses'
I was calling it bromance time, since all three of them are actually in a bromance.
Anyway Justin was staying at Ryan's house tomorrow night, and that's how I am going to send Ryan his first letter,
but I didn't know what to say, because at the moment I don't think this is a really good idea,
I am worried that it won't work out, and that my heart will end up teared apart.... even more.
But that was thinking negative, I really need to think positive about this, I was going out with Ryan Butler,
to see a movie, and it was going to be amazing. I had been crushing on this boy since the start of tour,
and it's finally happening, I actually get to be alone with him, and talk to him and most of all impress him.

I was standing in front of the mirror, looking at my reflection, to me I had so many imprefections that, I had no self esteem,
but to those that were kind to me. Eg: Ryan, my friends Jayne and Logan, I was beautiful.
But I just couldn't see it. I had medium length black hair, and brown eyes,
my hair was just past my shoulders to be exact, and it was natural curls,
my nose wasn't big, and my eyebrows weren't thick.
But I thought I had a ugly smile, not because my teeth were bad, they were fine, it was just
no one has ever said I had a beautiful smile, and that's why I don't like it.

I grabbed my pink dress out of my wardrobe and put it on, and tugged at the bottom so it was even,
and I grabbed a pair of high heels that were pink from under my bed.
And then I was ready.

The difference between this date, and every normal date is, that Ryan isn't picking me up from my house,
you know the gentleman thing to do, but he had his reasons, can you imagine if Ryan turned up at my house
and was like to my mother and Justin "Hey is Kate ready to come to the movies?",
he would be told to come in, and Justin would of taken my place, and I would of got told off,
for making plans with Justin's friends, without Justin's permisson.

I walked out of my bedroom, and closed my door quietly, and slowly walked down the stairs,
my mother and Justin were in the living room, having 'Family Time', I was never included in 'Family time',
but even if they asked me, I would of still said no, because I would of just been ignored when I wanted to say something.

I walked to the front door, and went to go out of it, and then Justin turned around
"Where are you going?" he asked quickly.
"Out" I snapped.
Mum turned around just as I finished saying that "Who with?" she asked.
"Logan" I lied.
Mum and Justin both exchanged glances, and then nodded
"Is it a date?" asked Justin,
I couldn't lie to him about that, because of the way I was dressed "Yes it is" I said.
Justin looked at me confused "With Logan?" he asked.
I rolled my eyes "Yes with Logan now bye" I said.

Mum shook her head "No get back here young lady" she said.
I sighed "Mum I have done the dishes, cleaned the bathroom, and clean everyone's bedrooms can I please just go out?" I begged.
She looked back at Justin, as if he was the boss and waited for a answer,
I looked at my brother with the most 'please Justin' look I had ever given him,
and then he smiled and nodded "I guess Kate does deserve a night off" said Justin "Just be home by midnight".
I rolled my eyes "Thanks Dad" I said sarcasticly and walked out the front door.

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I was standing at the cinema waiting for Ryan, it wasn't long before I see him walking towards me,
he was wearing nice jeans and a shirt, with a blazer on top, just to make him look fancy,
his hair wasn't brushed it was all messy, that's when my knees started shaking,
because I was going on a date with the most attractive boy I had ever seen in my entire life,
was my life starting to turn around?

Ryan walked over to me and gave me a hug "I'm glad you could make it Kate" said Ryan smiling,
I smiled "Me too" I said happily,
"Should we go get our tickets?" asked Ryan.
I nodded "That would be a good idea" I said.

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Ryan decided that it should be fine to walk me home, he only lived a block away and Justin and my mum would be asleep by now,
so it's not like they were going to see us or anything.
We were at my driveway, and that's when I stopped Ryan "Just incase we better say goodbye here" I said.
Ryan smiled "That would be a good idea" he said.
He grabbed my hands and held them with his "Goodnight Kate, I had a great time" he said and kissed my cheek.
I felt my face burn up, as I started to blush, "Thanks I had a great time too" I said smiling.
Ryan smiled "I'm glad you did" he said.

There was complete silence between us, it wasn't awkward it was just silence.
And that's when it started to rain, and I had no choice but to ask Ryan something that I should of thought through
"Would you like to stay the night?" I asked.