Can't Afford to Eat

I stood from the couch.
Jarred,
Scared,
Uncertain.
"Please leave."
I was letting him slip,
Through my fingers,
This very moment
Becuase of my fear.
He was right,
Of course.
"Penelope."
Skipped.
Swallowed.
His voice saying my name,
Sounded beautiful.
"I don't,...date."
"Why?"
"Because."
"Becuase your scared."
I looked away,
For a second.
"Please tell your friend,
I'm not interested."
He got up,
Looked at the door,
Then at me.
And left.
Seth.
Holding my breath,
Trying not to cry.
I walked to the kitchen.
Pulled out some ice cream.
And began to eat.