‹ Prequel: Twins.

The Road.

Chapter 21.

I walked back to the apartment trying to figure out what I would do if I saw Alex there, and to my disappointment he was there, just waiting for me.

"Ariana, are you okay? What happened? I got your note.. listen can we talk--"

I slapped him across the face, "You're an asshole you know that!"

He winced, "Ow! What was that -- Okay, I deserve it, I thought it over okay and I'm just scared"

He had no idea why I slapped him so hard he thought it was about the baby, and partly it was but mostly it was the cheating.

"You have no idea do you, "I teared up.

He looked at me, "Ariana..."

I took a step back, "Not once have I ever doubted your feelings for me or that you loved me Alex, not once did I consider your to be that kind of person.."

"Ariana..what are you talking about ?"

I started to cry again, I just couldn't stand looking at him and imagining him screwing some other girl, my heart just couldn't take it. I turned away from him and cried into my hands.

"Ariana.." he whispered.

"DON'T TOUCH ME!" I screamed, pushing him back.

"Tell me what's wrong"

"How can you act so fucking innocently, how can you go lying to me like that! How could you? I've always been faithful I never once thought about hurting you like that Alex! So how can you look me in the face every night telling me that you love me when you're fucking some other girl!"

His face lost all color, "W-What?"

"I know, I know that you've been cheating on me, I know okay, so stop your fucking act because I'm not buying it!" I cried.

"A-Ariana.."

"STOP,I don't want to hear your excuses! There's no excuses for this, NOTHING, I'm not sick and I'm not dying! I'm just pregnant! Oh, but you can't stand that either! Just tell me Alex, tell me something!"

He just looked at me, I couldn't tell what his expression was, confusion maybe? Disappointment?

"You don't care do you? You don't care that you're killing me do you?!"

Alex just looked at me while I stood there spilling my feelings all over the place he wasn't even apologizing.

"If you didn't want me you should have told me so years ago! "I screamed throwing the jewelry he had given me.

"Ariana, it's not that I don't want you, I do, I still love you.."

"Don't lie to me , Alex I know love when I see it, you don't love me"

"How can you possibly know THAT!?"

"Because if you truly love someone, you wouldn't hurt them! The way you hurt me! I never did anything like this to you, and I never would!"

By now I was on my knees on the ground crying, I wasn't strong enough to put myself together, I was strong enough to keep my composure.

"I trusted you not to hurt me, you said you'd never break my heart, why?"

He was just standing there, I don't think he knew what to say to me I wasn't sure if he was ashamed or too shocked because I was such mess.

"Ariana..."

"What? You don't think I loved you?! Look at me Alex, I'm a fucking mess because of you, I'm crying my eyes out because of you! Alex, fuck I'm so in love with you, and I don't want to be! I HATE that I am, because of all the damage that you're doing to me!"

Alex sat in front of me, and put his hands on my face, he was calm. How could he be so calm and collected? I was shouting at him and telling him how much pain I'm in and he just cupped my face.

"Please, stop crying"

I turned away, "Everyone says you're not worth my time, but they never said it before, they always tell you after so they can try and cheer you up, it never works, it always makes me feel worse,"

"Ariana, look at me,"

"No, I don't want to, I'm disgusted by you," I sniffled.

"Ariana, please, I didn't want to hurt you, honest,"

I turned to look at him, "Don't lie to me, I've had enough"

He tried to kiss me but I shoved him back, "Don't try that! You lost everything Alex, I'm never going back to you, ever,"

"What are you saying?"

"That we're through, I can't be with someone that disgusts me so much,"

"Ariana!"

I got up, "Alex, stop okay, go be happy with her, I'm sure she's better at fucking than I am!"

His face soften, "That's not at it at all--"

"Who is she? Tell me!"

"No one, you know,"

I slapped him again, "I hate you, I hate you so much Alex, you have no idea how much, I hate that I still love you, but I'm going to get over you in time, with my baby, alone."

"Ariana, I'm so sorry, I was just--"

"Weak? Dumb? Please save your excuses,"

"I've always loved you, " he said.

I shook my head, "I don't believe you, "

I walked into the apartment and took out all the pictures I could find, and torn them apart, Alex was trying to stop me but I kept shouting at him to leave me alone.

"Ariana, please stop this, I want --"

"To keep this memories? Well, I don't. I don't want anything with your face on it!"

Alex then grabbed me and pulled me closer and held me tight, my eyes were puffy and red and were still tearing up, my cheeks were rosy and my lips were quivering, while Alex tried to stay calm and collected.

"I fucking love you okay, I have never loved someone I love you Ariana, you mean the world to me," he said, his eyes were swelling with tears.

I've never actually witnessed him cry and this was weird for me but it didn't change anything, he hurt me and I wasn't going to take it.

I stopped struggling and I stared into his eyes whispering, "Why Alex? wasn't I good enough?"

He shook his head, "It's not that, Ariana, it's that I couldn't contain myself and I got lonely,"

"I was really lonely too, but I never did anything, Alex"

"I know, and I'm sorry I really didn't want to hurt you,"

"I still can't be with you, I would hurt too much" I sighed, wiping my tears away.

I got out of his grip and turned to get the rest of my stuff, but he pulled me back and crashed his lips against mine. I just stood there, I was pushing him away but I wasn't pulling him closer to me, I just closed my eyes. Another tear rolled down my face, I gave in, I kissed him back his hands were on my back and my arms wrapped around his neck. I just couldn't help myself, his kisses made my heart melt and I wanted to push him away but I couldn't.

I shoved him back, "Alex... stop. I can't, and I won't,"

I grabbed my remaining stuff and ran into someone, "Sorry... Oh.. Jack"

He looked at me curiously, "What's wrong sweetheart?"

I wiped my tears away, "I confronted Alex about this whole thing, he sure didn't deny,"

Jack frowned, "I'm sorry,"

I hugged him tight and started to cry again, "I hate feeling like this, I hate crying, I hate that I still love him, fuck, I told him that too, but I can't be near him,"

"Then come with me," he whispered, "I'll make you forget all about him,"

"Huh?"

He smiled, "Just come on,"

I wasn't sure where Jack was taking me but I trusted him, more than ever, so I followed him.
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Hope you guys like it. I wonder where Jack is going...
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