Spinning Insanity

Food is just unappetizing

My stomach hurts

I think I'm sick.

Maybe life is making me sick.

When I ran upstairs after arguing with mother I was shaking.

I seem to keep shaking.

It won't stop.

I'm not sure what's wrong.

I can't go to the doctor since he would tell about my cuts.

I need help but I can hold on for 3 years.

When I go to London I'm debating whether I should let them read this.

But I'm not sure I want them to know.

Maybe this will be the note I leave when I leave.

I hope I can keep writing this for 3 years and even after that.

It helps to write.

After all the events of this weekend I still cant grasp that they've happened.

I can't trust anyone.

I have this overwhelming feeling.

I'm not sure what it is I've never felt it before.

It feels like some unknowing force has just whispered to me that everything is gonna change.

That nothings gonna ever be the same.

I can't wait till I go to Disney with school.

It will feel similar to when I run away.

No parents and the freedom to go anywhere I want.

Too bad it only lasts for a week...