Spinning Insanity

My hands,are shaking

My voice is quivering

Im stuttering

I am going to my cousins wedding

My dress has no sleeves.

Im so scared.

Do they notice how randomly nervous I am?

I hope its dark by the time we get there

We can only go to the reception part

I tried cover up

But it almost made it worse

At least they arent fresh

I am so fucking scared that someone will see the scars.

Eyeliner always made my eyes water and itch a little

I might be alergic to it but once in a while it wont hurt,

But when they started to water, it was like a waterfall

My eyes needed a reason to cry and that was it

I fought it back and no one noticed.

I got my hair cut!

I realized I had to wear short sleeves while I was getting it cut

I think the scissors and the razor reminded me

I dont know what to do

We are driving there now

I have a jacket on

But im so scared

Fuck....