Spinning Insanity

There are 71 days till the best day ever; April 15!!

The day I see the superheroes that save me from life everyday

My Chemical Romance!

Its midnight and yet again I cant sleep

But this time its because of excitement

I already said I might get to meet them

But I was thinking about it and the reality of it suddenly dawned on me

I will see them IN THE FLESH

I could touch them

I can hear them and it isnt passed through speakers

oh man! Holy shit!

If I meet them I really dont want anyone but myself to see my moment with them

It would be like someone watching you having sex for the first time

Its something private with someone who you love and who changed your life

I want it to myself and MCR

I want to thank them and hug them and talk one on one

Even if we're only alone for 10 minutes I want it that way

I dont wanna share it and have tge conversation not be as meaningful

My friends can have their moments too

I just want mine alone

Too bad thats probably not gonna happen with my dad going and all 6 or 7 other people who are going with

Plus it would be quite awkward when I thank them for saving my life and everyone that doesnt know about my suicidal cutting secret is hearing it

I would have a lot of explaining to do when I got home

I dint think my parents realize the real reason I like mcr so much

I think they think its cuz I find them hot.

Which I do but my reason is summed up in the reason I want to be alone when I meet them

I actualky didnt find them attractive till a year after liking their music

So yeah im all giddy with excitement!